"Can't You See" Zenitsu x Male! Reader

Chapter 6: Mental Doctor...

Chapter 6: Mental doctor...



(Author's note: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA idk what to title this.)



This chapter is about M/N feeling the trauma that affected him? Will he be healed by Zenitsu? Maybe...

M/N's POV:

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Where am I?



The whole area was covered in (f/c) flowers which a cherry blossom tree. I felt lost, walking for some help... I looked up at the sky... to see a gruesome sight. I saw a body from the sky landing with a heavy impact on the (f/c) flowers. I walked to the dead body.

It turns out it was my mother, with a red spider lily growing on her heart. Her body was pure gray and her eyes were all white.

I felt my heart go heavy as I remember the demon who killed her. The next thing I knew, multiples bodies were on the floor, all of them growing a red spider lily somewhere. I looked at all the bodies, they were all of my loved ones and friends, but not all of them.  I felt an entire sink come out of my eyes.


I wanted to run to the tree and sob, but I was too overwhelmed with the state of emotion I was in. I felt almost paralyzed from the emotions in my head. I forced myself to run over there, trying to wipe my own waterfalls. Once I was there, I saw one more body that affected me the most, Zenitsu's body. The body was growing flowers on the heart, hands, and legs. All of a sudden I kept hearing the repeating phrase: "M/N, I love you". All over again. I hugged the body in tears, I didn't expect him to be healed or anything...

"Why... Why now! I never told you my feelings..." I sobbed. I then see a familiar shadow. Akaza. I felt a sight feeling that he's going to kill me. I saw the red in my eyes as I cried. I hate this reality so much, to the point, I decided this had to be done...I closed my eyes and decided that it's all over... 

















Reality...

My eyes shot open as I thought the fate in my dream reality was real... I felt as if everything were black and white now... I heard a voice in front of me.

"Oi, don't sit up, your back hasn't fully healed." Oh, it was Aoi. That reminded me of how much of a failure I was during the mission... If I hadn't fought Akaza... Maybe he would be alive... just maybe. I laid down, feeling the heavy burden I had. I look around the infirmary I was in, my friends were there.


Tanjiro POV:

Zenitsu was trying to comfort me and Inosuke over Rengoku-San's death. I then saw M/N, awake. I notice something was off. His smell seemed like the smell of pure trauma. I wanted to check on him.

"M/N are you ok?" He only wrapped himself in blankets with silence. Usually, he would respond.


Fiyo was passing by, so I decided to visit Rengoku's house to learn more about Hinokami Kagura. I managed to flee the place without anyone interrupting.


Zenitsu's POV:

Where did Tanjiro go? Darn it, he shouldn't be going out after getting hurt. I decided to check on M/N since that was the last thing Tanjiro did before going. I notice he was hiding in the blankets. I was about to speak until M/N said something.


"I'm not feeling too good..." I wanted to really see if he's not. I pull the blanket to see his eyes. Those (e/c) eyes... were just pure empty, it almost looks like he was going to breakdown. I put the blankets back on him, concerned. The death of Rengoku must have taken a major impact on M/N. He didn't even get to attend his funeral. I decided to speak to him later once he's alone.


Shinobu-San and I were getting pretty concerned about Tanjiro's health. I also worried about M/N, of course.


The next day...


M/N's POV:


My back has fully recovered. I can't really train though, since my cuts are still healing. I never had my own room, so I asked to take a walk outside for today. When I was about to go outside, I saw Zenitsu being clingy to Nezuko, as usual. I felt that small drop of Jealousy.



Sigh, It was mostly Nezuko-chan this and Nezuko-chan that...



I decided to stay away from the surrounding people since I need to cope with Rengoku's death and my failures.  




I got to a small forest outside the Butterfly Estate. I ran loops and punched and kicked trees, knowing that I'm just harming myself. I just wanted to be stronger. I then see Inosuke.


"Oi M/N, what are you doing?" This was the first time I actually saw Inosuke say my named right and talking politely.