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[11]𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚘𝚘

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kokichis pov:
dialogue
friday
11:30AM

I walked to school again, i felt really bummed out after that stupid confession,after that night i didn't answer shuichis messages

I was too hurt and found it stupid how i spilled my love, which I know I shouldn't have and just got crushed in the ?nicest way possible?

I felt sick as i came nearing towards school and to be quite fair i didn't want anything to do with it, everyday is the same horror and an on going cycle all i want to do is for it to stop
i'd do anything to just drink panta right now.

anything

i kept walking with my head down until i bumped into someone,i muttered a sorry and then i saw their shoes,what loser shoes

Iwanted to comment on them,i felt very upset so i wanted to take it out on anyone,and then put up my mischievous smile and put my hands behind my head

"where'd you buy those shoes from?they look ridiculous"I teased,I opened my eyes and to my shock
...
"h-hi.."

oh god anyone but him
anyone,I beg of you lord

"oh"was all I could whisper,I didn't want to run away because something was telling me to just stay,ya know..my heart,my stupid weak heart

"i'm sorry,I texted your friend k-"

"I don't have any friends"I hissed,I don't know why I came off as aggressive but I just did

"but.."he didn't say anything else and to be honest he looked like he was about to cry,I did feel bad for him "listen,I didn't know what you were saying last night so I asked my friend.."

oh,pfff he's so innocent

"and she said you were confessing,like your love..for me"the last part came off as a question to me,like he didn't sound convinced that I did love him

"yeah I don't love you"I replied,smiling but inside I was dying

"..."

"that was a lie shumai!!"I smiled,he stood there awkwardly "what you don't believe me?"

"no..it's just..why would you like me?"

"many things,you're funny,sweet and a bonus you're cute"

that was the whole hearted truth,surely he didn't come allll the way over here just to reject me again,but he didn't say anything and to be fair I didn't wanna get rejected the second time AND in public

"listen,if you're not gonna say anything leave,I don't wanna get crushed again"I pushed past him and I felt something cold roll down my cheek

a fucking tear

no way I was crying,I refuse...I r-e-f-u-s-e
I'm not gonna cry for a stupid emo cute innocent dumb smart tall boy

"hey wait! please,I'm not good at this"

I kept on walking

"kokichi please,I-I I really..." "I really love you"

what
what

I turned back around and he was smiling,like a lot,he looked like HE was going to cry but he didn't,he walked over to me and before I could say anything arms were being held around me

I was behind hugged by him

it took me a while to see if I wanted to hug him back but I did and I nuzzled my head on his chest,I didn't want to let go

I wanted us to stay like this until the end of time
he deserved everything

"hey..what does this mean for us?"I asked quietly

........
"we can be together..i-if that's what you want"he responded,I broke off the hug and looked him up in the eye

"you dummy of course I wanna be with you!"I jumped up on him and he stumbled he caught me as he was laughing a bit

ha bless him..

"okay,you should seriously get to school though"he laughed,I didn't want too but...for him i'll do anything

"okay..please text me later, see you soon" I paused "I love you"

Two months... guess I fall in love fast

we held hands and he squeezed them tightly

"I love you too kichi"I blushed at the nickname and unfortunately we went out different ways..

i really do love him huh

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this was the end of my loop..
this was the end of this boring depressing cycle
because shuichi saihara, he broke my loop
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i'm gonna be honest here, i didn't expect ppl to read this so my writing was shit, i've kind of improved my writing and got couple books waiting to be published, non saiouma, but i could still do saiouma books :D

and also this was supposed to be a short texting book so sjsnjs-

anyways, for now

see you soon<3