acid pools behind my eyelids
i can't help but relish the pain
as my vision burns away
like paper held over a candle
it blackens and curls into ash
spreading from my eyes to my brain
every cell encased in toxic glory
aching for the reminiscent escape
so I lie here and wait
for every nervous stem to be corrupted
twisted into the oblivion of my mind
until I don't feel a thing
my mind melting
memory slipping like sand in a hour glass
waves of nausea leave me weak and trembling
I can't escape the unease of someplace so foreign
so it continues to climb up and up
from the tip of my toes to the hairs on my head
it keeps creeping further into my system
digging it's roots into my wrists and thighs
pinning me down
useless to fight
always succumbing to the greater feeling of
nothing
that's all I want to feel
nothing
but instead my eyes burn
and acid now leaks through
scarring my cheeks
dripping past my lips
it carves patterns across my skin
raw red lines to match my bloodshot eyes
I cry
and cry
and cry
stuck in the endless loop of time
where fleeting feelings are overcome too quickly
when I've really just been moving too slowly
to notice the details fade away around me
until it's too late and I'm trapped in this tunnel vision with only false light ahead
unable to escape the inevitable fate of the worms and grubs that will soon burrow into my pores
it's so much easier to just let them have their way
so here I lay
letting it all sink in and weigh me down with it
until all that's left of me is hollowed out eyes
eroded and rotting
I'll stay
