Armie's POV
It's 12 midnight and I just finished my third scotch. He's not home yet. Fuck my life. I heard the door opened.
"Buti naman alam mo pa uuwian mo?" Malamig na tanong ko. I stood up and went to face him.
"Hindi mo na dapat ako hinintay." Cold din na sagot niya. Saka niya lang ako dinaanan.
I sighed. "Tangina mo, Jin."
"Ano nanaman bang kadramahan to? Pwede ba Armie bukas na lang? Pagod ako. Wala akong panahon para sa mga kadramahan mo."
I froze. I just felt tears rolling down my cheek. My knees are just so shaky and in one swift I just fell on my knees. It hurts but my heart hurts more. It breaks my heart indeed.
"PAGOD KA? PUTANGINA JIN! PUTANGINA! AKO BA INALALA MO KUNG PAGOD NA? YOU ARE SUCH A BASTARD! DON'T YOU THINK I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT?! HINDI KA BA TALAGA MAKUNTENTO SAKIN KAYA GUSTO MONG BALIKAN ULIT SI KENE? ABA TARANTADO SABIHIN MO LANG. SAWANG SAWA NA AKO JIN. AYOKO NA. I GAVE UP EVERYTHING FOR YOU YET YOU DO THIS TO ME. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU HARD. I HATE YOU SO MUCH THAT I NEVER THOUGHT SOMEONE COULD HATE SOMEONE THIS MUCH. TANGINANG VIRGINITY SANANG HINDI KO NA BINIGAY SAYO ANG GAGO MO. ALAM MO BA KUNG PAANO KASAKIT MANGANAK?! FOR FUCK'S SAKE NAGAWA KONG MAGBUHAT NG BATA SA SINAPUPUNAN KO PARA LANG MABUO KO ANG PANGARAP MO NA PAMILYA PERO ANONG GINAWA MO? ULIT ULIT MO AKONG GINAGAGO. MAGSAMA KAYO NI KENE. NABABAGAY KAYO SA IMPYERNO."
I quickly grab my keys in the table and ran as if a leopard was chasing me. I went to my car and drift away. I found myself in a familiar place. I parked my car and sat near the shore. The view here is nice and it couldn't even fix my heart. I love him so fucking much and I still love him with all the broken pieces.
"Hey. Is there something wrong?" Tumingala ako at nakita ko si Matt na nakatingin sakin. I didn't think twice. I just pulled him and embraced him so tight.
"A-armie.. Let it all out.. I'm here for you."
"I just can't. I mean it. I just can fucking not. It hurts so bad and I want to just take my heart out and throw it so bad." He caressed my back and I suddenly felt haven in his arms. He always finds me in my worst and I think I should give it a try.
I don't know what came to me and I suddenly pulled him in. My lips touch his lips. I was suddenly kissing him torridly. I know he was shock. Well, I am too. After a second he kissed me back and it was just so nice. I felt that I was totally loved. I think he woke up from reality and he pulled away.
"Shit shit shit!" He cursed as he stood up and walked around me.
"It's my fault... Sorry." I apologized.
"No. Armie. It is my fault. Alam ko naman na depress ka. Hindi ko dapat ginawa yun." Ang awkward. Why did I even think of it? Shiz.
"Matt.... Can I stay at your place?" Tanong ko.
"Oo naman. You can." Ginamit namin yung sasakyan niya. Iniwan ko nalang dun yung sasakyan ko saka sabi niya papasundo niya na lang daw bukas sa driver nila yun. Dahil siguro sa pagod kaya hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako. Nagising nalang ako na nasa bahay na niya kami. Nafeel ko na bigla nalang akong lumipad sa ere. Hindi ako nakadrugs ano ba! Sa palagay ko binuhat niya ako. Hinayaan ko na siya. Bahala na siya sakin. I trust him and I think he won't do anythig stupid naman. I can smell his manly smell. I opened my eyes. Nakita yung grey walls and painting sa wall.
"Matulog ka na ulit." Pagkasabi niya nun. Hinagkan niya yung noo ko saka na lumabas ng kwarto. I couldn't help it. My tears started to fall again. Ganito pala yung feeling na 3 beses ka na ginago. Dahil sa iyak ko kaya hindi ko na namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako. Binuksan ko yung mata ko at mabilis ko naman itong ipinikit ulit. Shiz. I hate the sun.
"M-matt?" Tawag ko. Anong oras na ba? Tumayo ako at lumakad kahit nakapikit pa ang mata ko.
"Ahhhck!" Biglang may nanghila sakin saka niya ako yinakap.
"Good morning, Love."
"Matt?" I opened my eyes. Isang malaadonis ang nasa harap ko ngayon.
"Who else?" He smirked.
"Bakit ka hubad?" He chuckled. Shirtless kaya siya tas towel nalang nagcocover ng genital niya. Jusko. He's a pure sin in both legs.
"Armie.. I was suppose to get my clothes but you look so cute sleeping so I watched you."
"The fuck?"
"That is so true. Are you feeling alright now, Mi Bella?"
"I don't know anymore." He cupped my face.
"Cheer up, Darling! Pupunta ako ng rancho bukas. You wanna come?"
"Ilang days tayo dun?"
"2 weeks."
