🥀Book of poems🥀

Feelings

This is a personal letter I wrote to my bestfriend telling them how I felt. I still do have a crush on them but this sums up how I feel even though they dont feel the same.

I hate the way I feel twords you, I hate the guilt I feel when I think about my feelings, it's like a fire dancing in a forest warm and beautiful yet I'm stuck in the middle of it, I'm suffocating in guilt and warmth from all these emotions and I want to put out the flame but I have no water to do that, but yet again I like these feeling it's nice a sweet like honey yet so thick when you have no one to share it with.
But along with that flame is the burning hot guilt from the embers that float around me, they tell me and remind me that you dont foster the same feelings I do they swirl and fill my mind and lungs with burning guilt and it reminds me that I shouldn't feel this, I burn and it hurts and I tell myself that I shouldn't like you, and believe me I fully respect your feelings and I want nothing but the best for you... well because I care for you alot, but again I hate talking about these burning emotions because I feel it'll hurt you? That itll bother you? Im scared you'll get sick Of my yapping, I feel like a sick puppy yapping and yapping in pain and you'll get annoyed with my yapping,
Im scared that you'll hate me for my nonsense and whiney feelings, I bite my tongue and keep my trap shut cause im afraid like a bear stuck in a forest fire, I have no where to run and im thrown into the pit only to be face to face with my fears and fires, and I dont know how to fight them so I run and run in hopes theyll get tired and die out but really theres no use in running from myself.
-zach