The Camren Child (Completed)

Chapter 14

Your POV

"Derek was arrested." I mumble. I was laying in bed with Ma and Mom and I had my head on Mom's lap who was reading a book sitting up against the headboard. She was playing with my hair, and Ma was behind me, laying on her side rubbing my back.

"It was proved?" Ma asks.

"Yeah. She came over today, and we got into this whole screaming war. I think she understands that we're done." I say. Mom takes a deep breath and puts her book down.

"I have one question. Now don't start yelling at me, I'm just trying to understand your thought process. If she didn't cheat on you, why are you still mad at her?" Mom asks.

"Because she lied to me. She didn't trust me. If the positions were switched she would be the first person I would tell. Even before you guys. She lied to me. I'm with Justin now and I'm happy, and I realized that my relationship with Kate wasn't a real relationship. Even though she didn't cheat on me I can't be in a relationship with her." I respond.

"Well if that's what you honestly think, I'm proud of you for doing what you think is right." Ma says. "But I think that you are just scared. I think you don't actually love Justin. I think you know he's the safe option, and you're scared to be hurt by Kate. I know you, I know the way you looked at her." Ma says.

"Yeah well she didn't trust me. I love Justin, and I can't go back to her. She killed me on the inside." I mumble.

"It didn't seem to hurt you that much. You started dating Justin a week and a half maybe two weeks after?" Mom says. I sigh.

"I've been trying to ignore this..." I mumble. 

"You can't keep that poor boy in a relationship when you are still in love with Kate." Ma whispers.

"I can't go back to Kate." I say sternly.

"Maybe you just need to take some time for yourself." Mom says.

"I don't wanna lose Justin." I mumble.

"Well tell him that. But if you don't actually love him you can't hold him in a relationship." Ma says. I nod but don't move.

"I'll talk to him tomorrow after school." I say.

-

"Hey Justin can I talk to you in the courtyard?" I ask. He nods, it was right after school and I had to do this. I sit under a tree and Justin sits across from me.

"Is everything ok?" He asks grabbing my hands. I take my hands out of his and take a deep breath.

"Uh ok, so as you know we've been very good friends for a while, and I know you've liked me. Uh I was talking to someone yesterday. I really like you. But I don't like like you. I thought I did, but I uh- look. My mom told me that her perspective on us was that you were the safe choice and I was too scared to be in a relationship with Kate because I was scared she would hurt me. Looking back on it, I don't want you to take this the wrong way, you were the safe choice. I know you wouldn't hurt me, but I can't do this, I'm sorry." I look into his eyes and they are watery. "Justin I'm sorry. You are my best friend but I think I only thought I liked you because you were there. I'm so sorry. I really am. But I can't hold you in a relationship that isn't real, it's not fair. I'm sorry. I think I just need to take some time for myself. I was so angry at Kate."

"You're breaking up with me?" He squeaks out. I nod. He stands up and walks away angrily.

-

I collapse on the couch and put my head in my hands letting out the breath I felt like I have been holding in since I talked to Justin. "Rough day?" Mom asks plopping next to me.

"I feel so bad. He was crying." I mumble. Mom rubs my back and kisses the back of my head.

"Well sweetie, he was in love with you. But he'll get over it, I promise. You have to give him time." Mom whispers leaning back against the couch. I lean back as well and put my head on her shoulder.

"He's my best friend Mom." She nods and kisses my forehead. "I'm scared I lost him." I whisper.

"You didn't lose him. He will move on, you will move on, and everything will be ok." She says. "Are you going to go for a run?" Mom asks. I nod going upstairs to get changed.

-

"Hey Kate can I talk to you?" I ask. She nods standing up, I walk out into the hallway. "Uh so you may have heard Justin and I broke up." I say. She nods. "Look I think you were right." Her face lights up. "Well partially. I think you were right about the fact that I jumped into his arms because he was there. But I don't think you were right about us being love. Kate I want to make it clear that even though Justin and I are done, it doesn't mean we're going to date. I'm going to be single for a while. Probably drink a lot, but I'm going to be single for a good long while. I need to see where I stand with myself." I say. She nods.

"Ok, that makes the note in your locker very awkward." Kate says moving from the balls of her feet to her heels. I laugh.

"I want to be friends though." I explain. Kate nods.

"That would be nice. I would love to be friends. Why don't we hang out Friday? I'm going to the movies with Abby, Kelsey, and Jessica. You should come." She says. I nod.

"Text me. I'll ask my parents tonight." The bell rings. "I'll uh see you in class." I say awkwardly walking to my locker.

-

"How were things today?" Ma asks sitting next to me on my bed. I lock my phone and put it in my pocket.

"Kate said she was ok with us being friends, we're hanging out with Jessica and Abby friday. Justin didn't even make eye contact with me." I sigh shifting a little bit.

"It'll get better. I promise." I roll my eyes. "What?" She laughs.

"Oh. So original. That's tattooed on your left forearm." I point out. She laughs.

"Yeah well," she shrugs. "What can I say? If it's good advice ink it at least twice." She shrugs.

"That should be your next tattoo." I say. She slaps me in the arm and gets out of bed.

"Goodnight sweetie." She kisses my forehead and leaves the room.

Lauren's POV

"She's a good kid." I say pulling Camz into my chest. She hums a response. "I feel awful. She has such a big heart, and she cares so much. She's just trying to figure out how it all works." I mumble.

"Yeah, but I have a feeling she'll turn out ok." Camz says. "I think we did a good job with her. The boys I'm not to sure about." Camz laughs. I laugh along with her.

"I forgot to say goodnight to them." I shrug. Camila slaps my arm. "Ow. What? Sometimes I forget they live here. They are always locked away playing video games." I mumble.

"You forget that we have 3 other kids?" Camila asks with a tone of disbelief.

"Well no. Sometimes they just slip my mind." I giggle. Camila kisses my neck.

"You're cute." She comments.

"Camila we are in our late 30's. I'm not cute any more." I shrug.

"You are cute, you are very hot, and you are very very beautiful." Camila mumbles sitting up kissing my lips. I smile.

"Thanks. But I already knew that." I shrug. Camila rolls her eyes and lays back down next to me. "Goodnight baby." I mumble.

"Goodnight, I love you." Camila whispers.

"I love you too."

A/n: Sorry for mistakes, I would love feedback, tahnks for reading, hope you enjoyed. You can also read this on 5fanfiction.tumblr.com