Chapter 2
I don’t even go inside of the school I stay outside and wait for her to drive off then I walk to the park. I stay there until about 4 o’clock then go home and go to my room by this time I’m not sad I’m mad. I’m not mad at anybody just mad at the world just I don’t know just MAD I storm into the house slam the door shut behind me. My mom looks at me as if I was crazy “Who do you think you are coming in here like that” she says to me I look right at her and say” You just don’t understand you never did understand me you are like the worst parents out there now and I hate living here I just want to run away and NEVER see you guys again”. I feel tears going down my face I run upstairs and shut my door as hard as I can and I lock my door, go to my bathroom, shut the door lock it and I start cutting my legs up. I hear my mom at my bedroom door banging on it saying “Xela come out here now I don’t know who you think you are come out here now Ella I mean it”!!!!!! I pay her no attention and keep on cutting as I see the blood rush down my legs onto the floor that I was sitting on. The rush of seeing my blood just calms me down most of the time but I was too mad for that today as I saw the blood go down and down I wanted to see much more of it. When I think it was time for me to get up I wipe up the blood and then get in the shower even in there I see the blood rush down my leg.
