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☾ 𝕆𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕥 𝕠𝕟𝕖 ☾

Trigger warnings:
Angst, suicide, suicidal thoughts, mention of the pe*o word, self-degrading, gun.

Marigold flower meaning: Pain and grief

Its all the same,
1:13PM
I get up out of bed and head for the bathroom. I brush my teeth and wash my face, looking at myself in the mirror.

'Why does bad look like a predator'

'There's no way bad is that ugly lmao'

'I can't look at bbh's face without gagging. why does he look so weird?'

I shake off the thoughts and head to the kitchen.

It's like a drug addiction.
1:22PM

Rat walks up to my legs as I enter the kitchen, she probably wants food. I grab the bag of dog food from the cupboard and pour it in to her dog Bowl. She begins to eat up the food the second I put the food in. "Good Rat." I then open the refrigerator and decide to to make eggs and toast. I take two eggs from the fridge, take out a pan. I finish the eggs and take the toast out of the toaster, then begin to walk to my room

You bring me pain.
2:03PM

I place my food on the desk and turn on my computer. I boot up Minecraft, open up team speak and sign Into my social media accounts. In the middle of logging into Twitter, I get a Microsoft reminder notification on my computer. "That's weird." I mumble to myself. But I'm frozen at what the reminder said.

Reminder:
2:30PM
12/3/20
Suicide execution day
Snooze  Dismiss

I don't remember making this and if so I did. why? I already knew the answer to that question. "There's always tomorrow" I say to myself. But my thoughts think differ.

'If you aren't going to do it today, when?'

I try to forget the thoughts that are getting more stronger. I press the dismiss button. 'There's always tomorrow'
Maybe I need to talk to Skeppy.

You give me joy.
2:40PM

Bad
SKEPPY
SKEPPY
GET ON TS

💙Cute muffin💙
Waht I jrut owke up
Ill get on in a bti

I cringe at his spelling mistakes as I wait for him to get on.

*User joined your channel*

"HI BAD!" Skeppy yells. He sound very energetic for someone who just woke up.

"Hi Skeppy!" I say in response.

"What you wanted to talk about bad? Oh, were we supposed to record today?" He said in a jumble, which made it sound like one word.

"I just want to talk with you Skeppy."

"Oh, let's talk then."

We talked for what seems like forever.
You know he's just using you for views.
He made me feel warm inside.
Do you actually think he likes you?
To bad all good things have to come to a end.

But, I'm tired of this.
5:30PM

After a long time of fighting with my mind, I agree to it.

Freedom

I take a piece of paper out and being to writing.

Freedom

I finish the note and being looking for it.

Freedom

After a long time of looking for it I find it.

Freedom

I find no bullets in it, so I look for them.

Freedom

I find the bullets and put them in it.

Freedom

I put it to my head and count.

1...

2...

3...

I can't feel the pain anymore :)
5:42PM
End
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566 words
December 4