TAKOT : lk [√]

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I'm alone at their garden, thinking about my mistakes, thinking about the real me, thinking about who I really am back then. Naramdaman kong may tumabi sakin. Wrong timing naman eh, nag ddrama ako dito.

"It wasn't your fault, Claire. It wasn't your fault that you have forgotten about me. And it wasn't your fault that you're happier with others than me."

"Is it all true? Lahat ng narinig ko, lahat ng nasaksihan ko, lahat ng sinabi mo. Totoo ba yun lahat? Please tell me to wake up from this nightmare. Please tell me it wasn't true. Please tell me I'm hallucinating."

"As much as I want to, Claire, hindi ko kayang sabihin yan. Totoo lahat."

"Kung ganon, bakit hindi moko sinubukang kalimutan katulad ng ginawa ko sayo? Bakit hindi mo ako saktan? Bakit hindi ka nag hanap ng ibang mag papasaya sayo, Changbin? Bakit?"

"Maniwala ka man o hindi, sinubukan ko, Claire. Pero... hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit."

"Changbin..."

"Kung saan ka masaya Claire, masaya narin ako. Wag mo ako gawing basehan ng mga magiging desisyon mo. Isipin mo lang lagi kung masaya ka ba."

"I'm really sorry to keep you waiting, though I never came back. But please, don't let my existence bring you down."

"I won't Claire, I promise." as he smiled bitterly. I'm feeling it slowly. His hands are slowly touching mine.

"Uhm... I have to go back inside, I'm sorry."

As I got back inside, nawala sila. Nasa kitchen daw, kaya tumambay muna ako sa sala. Nakinood ganon. Hinihintay nalang siguro namin dumating yung 00 liners para makakain noh?

"Claire... do you hate me now?"

"Wag kang mag salita ng ganyan, Minho."

"Answer me. Do you hate me now for keeping such things from you? Do you see me as a selfish person now as all I want is you for me and for the two of us to be happy?"

"I will never see you as a different person, Minho. I loved you the way you really are. It's just that... it's just that I don't want anyone hurting while I'm happy. I don't want anyone to suffer sadness just because of me..." I can't help it so I teared up.

"Sorry kung tinago ko sayo lahat. Believe me, matagal ko nang gustong sabihin lahat sayo. Ayaw lang ni Hyunjin dahil baka nga hindi ka pa handa."

"I get your point... but what do I do now? What can I do to cope up with my mistakes?"

"Claire, I said it's not your fault. Please stop thinking like that. Come here."

He freed his shoulders and gave me a sign. I'm so down so I did accepted pit. I layed on his shoulders and he wrapped his arms around me.

"Always remember Claire, even if you don't choose me in the end, my arms are always open to comfort you, okay? I love you."

"I..." love you too... hindi ko masabi... ayokong masaktan silang dalawa... "Thank you..."

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It's been weeks after that day happened and it's still as awkward to us as it is. But of course, we don't want something like our past to ruin our friendship, so we still see each other. And with Hyunjin, I of course can't stay angry at him.

"Bakit mo pinost, kuya Changbin???"

"Cute nyo kaya."

"I know."

"You know."

"Lee Know."

"NAYS WAN CLAIRE HAHAHAHA"

"Tang- dinamay pa nga. HAHAHA papunta na daw pala sila Chan hyung sa entrance ng park. Tara na."

"Awieee let's goooo~"

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