If She Only Knew

Will it be a Happy Ending?

So I started to actually record dates, but it doesn't matter. This may be my last work

Feb. 16 2015

Why do I like you. Why do I think about you everyday. Why can't I just get you out of my head. What is attracting me to you? I want at least one reason why I should not be attracted to her. I hardly know her now. All I know is she is the most beautiful person I have ever seen & she only gets more & more beautiful. I don't want to date her when I am a mess as it is. But I've never had someone block me in life this much before. I've tried to move on, I've tried to not look at her, I've tried to walk away. But she keeps popping up in my life, I use to think life wanted me to be with her. But now I don't know, she won't date me & I can't talk to her because I get interrupted or it just gets odd. But at the same time. I do want her to get in my way. I do want her to be the one for me. It is just her that doesn't want me.

So as to prove to myself that I love her. I will respect her choice &..... Well all I can do act as if I'm just a friend, Be by her distantly..... I only hope that in the end, everything will be resolved......