The dark past

Chapter 10 Sam's Pov

I grabbed Britney by the arm and started walking to my car. "What's wrong Sam?! Can't take the truth huh?!" Lauren yells at me. I spun around quickly at her comment. "Lauren you know what ? I meant what I fucking said okay? I don't care like you said were not together anymore you can be with whoever the fuck you want! get that in your head! I.DONT.CARE" I yelled back damn how many times do I have to say it. She nodded her head & looked me straight in the eye before flipping me off. "That's glad to hear because that means that I can do this ..." she walked over to Cameron & attached her lips to his. I clenched my jaw & fists together. I turned right around & got into my car slamming the car door with Britney in the passenger. "I'm taking you home now." I growled. "But Sam we could-" "No your going home" I cut her off quickly. I put the key in the engine and sped off leaving skid marks on the pavement. The car ride was silent because Britney knew I was pissed off. I finally got to Her house & she hopped out. "By the way Britney, we can't do this anymore I'm done with you." after I said what was on my mind I sped off leaving her on her driveway confused. It had to be said I can't play with her she's the most annoying girl. By the time I pulled into my driveway I took out a smoke & put it in my mouth while sparking it up. I took a few puffs and breathed out the smoke as I sighed. I finally finished my cigarette & threw it out my car window. I opened my car door & hopped out. I stomped on my cigarette & walked up to my front door. I got my key out of my pocket & opened up the door quietly. I walked in , closed the door locked it & walked into the living room. I found my mom on the couch watching tv. "Night mom" I said kissing her on the forehead. "Sam , is something bothering you?" she asked me. "is-is it Lauren?" she questions. "Mom-" I started to say but she cut me off. "Lauren is an amazing girl Sam, I know you made a mistake & I know that you still love her Sam" she spoke up. "Mom I can't talk about this , not now I'm sorry" I said looking down. I hate disappointing my mom but I can't talk about this. "it's okay Sam , talk to me when you're ready love you" she smiled & kissed my cheek. I walked up to my room & closed the door behind me. I threw my top to the ground & put on a pair of sweatpants. I sat on my bed & started thinking. Maybe I still do love her. But I can't help but think about what a fuck up I am. The breakup was all my fault. I lost someone who meant the most to me. I can't help but blame myself. There's only one way I can fix this , and that's to

Make her mine Again.