The Snow-Wolf

Chapter 27: The Sister

Chapter 27: The Sister

The stress with Charlie finally died down. Edward was still pissed at Jacob for his stupid act and causing Bella and I pain, but I could see Bella was happy that she could at least speak to her father again. And Renesmee was thrilled to have another grandpa, although I assumed she wanted to dig her teeth in Charlie to try his blood at times. She knew that was bad though.

Charlie came over frequently, sometimes with Sue as back up, and when they did I would either run off to be a wolf or hide in my room. Sometimes I would challenge myself to be downstairs with him and Sue, and on these days I always made sure Emmett and Jasper were around to restrain me.

Sue was elated to see me. She didn't give me a hug, but she let me know Seth was keeping her up to tabs with everything about me. When she got me alone without Charlie nearby, she asked how I was doing living with the Cullens and let me know she felt terrible for agreeing with the council about me having to leave La Push. I let her know I wasn't upset about that anymore. I told her the thirst was manageable, but it was best I was away from humans as much as possible. She was glad to hear I was doing okay though, and that Seth was treating me well.

As the months passed, my relationship with Jacob was still a little rocky. While I was finally trusted to be near Renesmee without all the glowering from Jacob, I could see he still didn't like the idea of me being near her on some days if I hadn't fed.

I would point out his distrust, and he would defend himself. On days when I lost my temper with him, I would try to run from him and change into my wolf form. He would follow after me and order me back. I would do this to try and break from the Alpha command, hoping as a wolf maybe I could since that was the form I was in when I broke from Sam. But I knew there was no hope. No matter how much I tried to ignore his order, the commands would take me over. I knew it was because of Seth. I could never leave my pack as long as Seth stayed.

The worst part about the pack, was most of the time there was no pack. Jacob was almost always with Renesmee, and Seth and Leah had returned to La Push to go back to living their lives. Leah mainly went back to help her mom out. Seth had to go back because of school. He would visit me whenever he could though. Sam interfered a lot, telling him he still had human obligations to his mom. On nights when Seth couldn't come over, he would call me.

Over the weeks I had started talking to my birth father again. Things had been tense with Sam's pack when Bella was pregnant, but Renesmee won the hearts of Sam and the other wolves when they came to meet her one day, and the rift between the Cullens and werewolves calmed again. My father mentioned to me he was aware from what Jacob had told him that I was upset with my brother. I informed him that I would always love Jacob, but that I could not trust him again with my heart. He had broken me too many times.

My father did want to see me still, and I kept coming up with the same excuse. "Sorry dad... I'm just not ready."

I knew every time I told my father those words I was more so lying to myself. With the frequency of Charlie and Sue's visits, I had been getting a little better at controlling my thirst. I just was afraid... I worried if I saw my father, the feelings of homesickness I had back in June would return. I had finally started to get used to my new life. Seeing him would remind me of what I had to leave behind.

It was October 17th. Renesmee was already a month old, but she looked close to a one year old child. She had spoken after only being one week old, and started walking three weeks later. Her progress was stressing both Carlisle and Edward out. I could see Jacob and Bella were worried as well. Something told me her growing would slow though. I felt strongly that she was like the pack. There was a part of me that believed she was just having a growth spurt, and by the time she reached maturity she would stop aging. Of course, my thoughts were only my prayers.