Teem mom (choni) on hold

The past that haunts me

Cheryl's POV
⚠️rape, abuse⚠️

My heart was torn into to when Toni kicked me out, it is not like I don't
Like her, shit I love - but I just can't. I thought in my head shaking out the thought that I loved her. Too much damage has happened. "Hey Cheryl, you ok" Betty asked me. Putting Autumn on the couch. "Yeah I am - no I am not ok" I said as my voice starting to crack. As tears fall down my eyes. I was trying to stay quiet because autumn was sleeping on the couch. "Cheryl come here" Betty say wrapping her hand around me. All the sad things of my life, hit me at once.  Toni was just a little part of it. " shhh," Betty said. The more Betty was trying to help me. It was like I could not fell better.

"Cheryl, is there someone I can call" Betty asked me. We were setting there for an hour. Autumn was still sleeping on the couch. "Yes umm Toni" I said. Knowing that she was the only person that could make me feel better. "Ok" Betty said pulling out her phone to text Toni. " she is on her way" Betty said rubbing my back, with her hand in a circle motion. The back rubs were calming down a little bit. "I am go to take Autumn to bed"Betty said getting up.  As Betty walked down the hall to Autumn's baby blue colored room , the doorbell rang.

I slowly put my hand on the couch and pushed off of it so I can walk to the door. I slowly placed my hand on the gold door knob and twisted it to my right. I knew exactly who it was, it was the person that I wanted to see the most the person who I want you to hohold the most and the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with the most. But it was also the person that I was afraid of leading in and just everything falling apart. I pulled the door open a little bit just enough for her to walk in. She was looking at the floor then when the door open she stared up and looked at me. "Hello Cheryl" she said to me. "Hi Toni" I said staring at floor. "May I come in" Toni asked me. "Oh yes sorry", I said walk out the way so she can come in. Toni walked in and close the door behind her. Toni walked into the living room and sit on the couch. "I got a text from Betty, saying that you needed me or something" Toni said. "Yeah I need to talk to you about something" I said. "What is it Cheryl" Toni asked concerned.

"Well, I need to tell you something but you cannot freak out or judge me" I said keeping my head down and looking at the carpet. "I would never judge you" Toni said putting her hand on my thigh. I swallowed, then looked up to see her brown eyes meet with mine. Those beautiful brown eyes I could get lost for days. "Ok " I said taking a deep breath before I started talking about my past the haunted me.

" well when I was thirteen, I come out to my family as a lesbian" I started. Toni just looked at me. " my family didn't take it very well, they called me a disappointment,  A loveless monster, and much ,much ,much, horrible things". A tear fell down my eye has those memory started coming back to me I try to forget my past but it always came back. " So they found Jason, A nice kind redhead for them to marry me off to". More tears started flowing down my eyes as the memory of Jason replayed in my head. Toni just kept rubbing my thigh as a way of telling me that it's going to be OK. I sniffled as I started to finish. " he was my friend at first, but then he kiss me, I don't want to till him that I liked girl. So I slapped him. We didn't talk for a couple of days after the incident." I took a deep breath and before I could finish the rest it was all coming back to me and so we're a bunch of emotions. " he came over to my house one day, and he was talking with my Mother, I was confused at first that why he was there but I just ignored him and upstairs to my room. Every day since that day he's been talking with my mother for about two hours every day. You know I was skeptical at first but I just kept ignoring it but I shouldn't have because it's when I made the biggest mistake of my life." I started to break down in tears and I was full on sobbing at this point, it was just so hard to talk about but I wanted to get through it I just didn't know how. Tony gently placed her hand on my back and started rubbing it in a little  circle motion. "It is ok" Toni said whispering in my ear.  She was so understanding.  She made me feel happy, even though I was talking about one of the most sensitive topics of my life. " that went on for about a month" I said. Ready to speak again after a few moments of reassuring. " Then one day Jason wasn't talking to my mother, it was kind of weird but I just went on about my day until I saw him upstairs in my room. he was standing there at the foot of my bed just staring at me. I was about to say something to him but he grabbed me and threw me on the bed. Started yelling at me to takeoff my shirt. And I tried begging and pleading with him but it didn't work and he slapped me. I slowly took off my shirt and bra. I was there face-to-face with him with the person I thought that was my friend. He told me to takeoff all my clothes and wait for him as he close the door and came back with no clothes on. I didn't never seen a private part before because I was having brothers kids to watch porn so everything is all new to me. As he came back in the room and slammed the door yelled at me to get on the bed. I did as I was told scared of getting hurt again. He slowly went inside of me as every push felt like my heart was being shattered. It was like nobody can save me. And what made it worse is out of the corner of my eye saw my mother standing at the door. That just made my heart break even more and it made me feel like I was in love with a monster as my mother loves to tell me." I just couldn't finish it I just started sobbing and sobbing and sobbing till I couldn't cry anymore. "Cheryl"! Toni said wrapping me in her arms. " I am so sorry that happened to you" Toni said holding me tighter in arms". I heard faint little cries come from Toni. I never thought the pink hair girl whatever shared a tear she always gave off this energy that she was so strong and brave but in a nice way. " Jason reraped me, because I was a lesbian" I  said struggling to get out. " oh I see" Toni said. " Cheryl I have to ask you something" Toni Said. " what is it" I asked.

Scared and concerned if she was gonna leave me like Jason did and like my mother did when I told her I was pregnant with Autumn. " I want to be your girlfriend I want to love you no matter what I want to be there for you when you're crying and when you're smiling and I want to pick Autumn up from school, and come onto the smell of you cooking in the kitchen" Toni said still hugging me. " I would love to be your girlfriend Toni" I said.  A little scared to let someone in another human being that may hurt me again or hurt my daughter and I was really nervous about the decision I made but I know that I Loved this girl, since the first day I saw her in the grocery store. Till every day after that. I was taking a huge risk but that was some thing that I was OK with because that's what love is.

" I love you Cheryl" Toni said pull me out of the crease of her shshoulder where I was crying. " I - I loved you to" I said. After I said that sentence Tony pulled me into a loving and passionate kiss. The kiss was nothing like sexual it was like I love you and I wanted to live with you and be with you forever I want to grow old with you. "Mommy" we heard A little voice call out. it was Autumn standing at the end of the hallway where you go into the living room. I want the tears off my cheeks and walked over there to pick The little redhead girl up. ReI placed Autumn in my lap.  "Mommy why  the princess here" Autumn said  not in a complete sentence. " The Princess is my girlfriend" I told Autumn. She look at Toni with a Little sparkle in her eyes.  "Wow you got a good one mommy." Autumn said smiling. " I love Princess and you too mommy" Autumn said. Crawling over me to get to Toni. "I love you too Autumn and I love your mom very much too"  Toni said holding Autumn in her arms "I love you too Autumn" I said. "Wait where is Betty" I said remembering Betty took autumn to bed but never came back downstairs. " she sleeping" autumn said half asleep and with a yawn.

I don't know about this chapter I hope you guys like it but if you don't that's OK it's a little bit sad but I hope you guys don't get mad at me. - madi 🫒💀💀🫀🪳😘😘🐖🌞