undercity

Cell and Hell

   I haven't cleaned up from what happened yesterday i still got blood on my hands white T-shit with blood stains 501's and chucks.  Still have the gold chain . I fear on taking it out i feel like something might start because of it ... and just like i predicted. "Yo puto tgats a nice chain homes. What you in here for? Murder?" The guy laughs " you look like a little bitch boy" i should've seen it coming. Cell doors open . Breakfast . I don't know anyone, I'll be isolated. But first i change into this light brown jail suit. While im changing i think to myself. .. what the fuck i haven't made my call yet.. so i ask to make a call. I dont even know who to call. Moments before i start dialing i hear my name thank god . "Aye you the skinny one. Yeah you you're free to go. " change back to your clothes" what the heck man i just changed . Fuck it .

  I don't know who this person is. It's the lady who called the cops she testified saying she saw everything and that i was innocent. I'm out fuck the cells now i enter hell. She drops me off at my house. She said something about get going to the groceries. I don't care as long as I'm out of that place. But now. Now I'm alone literally. School starts when my parents get home in like 6 days i have to make sure they don't find out about any of this. Killz. Omg killz. Oh man he left mind for a bit i need to go see him.  Oh wait. He's dead.  I sit on my porch crying drinking wine . I decide to go inside and showerbest thing to do right now.

   I get out put on some whatever clothes get my knife and hop on my bike.  I have no idea where I'm going I'm lost i don't have my companion by my side no more. I go to the hospital to see if i can find killz. Found him in the first one.  They said he was dead when the ambulance got there.  Since he had no background no identification no patents to claim him no family no nothing. I took responsibility. They said since I'm a minor i take him so they'll keeo him in the hospital cemetery. You know where they put then in the wall and what not. They said since i was the only person to go see him i could choose what to put on his tombstone. I said put "A BROTHER, A FRIEND, A PIECE OF LIFE, KILLZ. 12/25/1997 - (10/31)11/1/2012
   I'll never forget the look in his eyes. He looked as if he were ready. As if he had accomplished his mission on earth. He was ny brother he never complained he just acceoted everything. I know this might sound cold but i have to continue with life. We always told each other "who ever dies first shouldn't effect the life of the other one of us"
My bother. Gone. And for me. Without him this was hell.