If the world was ending... | Na Jaemin

K.H.Y

To: The One That I Let Down, Na Jaemin.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I ended us.

I was forced.

He was going to hurt you.

I didn't want to.

But I still said goodbye.

Remember that I stormed out of your house,

Right after I broke it off?

I was distracted as I drove off.

I got into a car crash.

You probably don't care now.

Hwayoung gripped her right wrist in pain. She injured it during the accident. But she decided to brush the burning pain off and continued writing the letter with wobbling hands. Resulting her handwriting to be a little bit weird.

Once I came home,

I was covered in blood.

No,

I didn't get my injuries treated.

Why would I get them treated,

If my world is ending?

I have a question for you,

If the world was ending,

You'd come over right?

Would you love me for the hell of it?

All our fears would be irrelevant,

Just like this piece of paper.

After I got a bit better,

I got addicted to alcohol.

I went to bars.

But whenever someone try to get me,

I said I'm unavailable.

Because I still think about you.

I tried to imagine,

Your reaction.

That night I went out drinking,

Came home and didn't even make it past the kitchen.

I already fell to the floor,

Crying my heart out.

I'm so pathetic.

How could I be so stupid,

and let you go?

I can't even think about you,

without feeling like my heart is about it's about to get ripped out.

I just wanna say,

I still love you.

Even though you hate me.

From: Kim Hwayoung

Hwayoung folded the paper and put it into an envelope, wrote his name and his address on it. She then took off the jade necklace around her neck, gifted by Jaemin. She put it on top of the envelope on her bed.