If the world was ending... | Na Jaemin

N.J.M

To: My Love, Kim Hwayoung

Do you remember?

Do you remember when we would get in my car and drive around with no destination?

We'd stop in the middle of nowhere.

Admire the stars.

Remember that one time we saw a shooting star?

We both wished something.

You asked me what I wished for. 

But I told you that it wouldn't come true if its said out loud.

Well, now that it didn't come true, I'll just say it.

I wished for this, for us, to be forever.

If I had told you what I wished for, would it have come true? 

Would we already be a happy couple?

If the world was ending, 

You'd come over right?

Drops of tears fell onto the paper as Jaemin shuts his eyes and bites his lips so that he doesn't sob out loud. His grip on the pen tightens before he loosen it and continued writing.

It's been a year now.

I still can't let you go.

But if the world was ending,

You'd come over right?

You'd come over and you'd stay the night.

Right?

The sky'd be falling and I'd hold you tight.

And there wouldn't be a reason why,

We would even have to say goodbye.

I know, you know, we know,

You weren't down for forever and it's fine.

I know, you know, we know,

We weren't meant for each other and it's fine. 

Its fine.

You let me down completely,

And it's completely fine.

Because I love you.

I love you too much,

That I hate you.

I can't do this anymore.

You left, 

And my life fell into pieces.

My heart did too.

From: Na Jaemin

By now, his eyes are red from crying. Jaemin wiped his tears with the sleeve of his hoodie. He put his pen down and read his letter again. He folded it nicely and put it in an envelope. On the envelope, he wrote your name, your address and sealed it with glue. He put it on his table with a almost withered rose on it.