Trusting is hard nobody can expect to have that after losing it sometimes bonds can't be fixed because there is to much to handle and your brain can't take it all.Literally feels like your thinking so many different things your Brain feels like it's gonna burst.Wanting the pain to just disappear is pointless because it doesn't disappear it stains a person.It leaves someone broken and scared.If you love somebody or remotely give a flying fuck you wouldn't do anything to hurt or break that bond.Theres no real excuse to just hurting someone for no reason.You don't realize how little a sorry is when you fuck up so bad.Theres no apology that can make shit perfectly fine it's your actions n when your not even showing you want that persons trust back it really just means that person is keeping that pain on hold till u try to fix it unless you don't then they just feel ignored n like it never really fucking mattered.Getting bottles after bottles or bowl after bowl don't fix shit but it feels like it does when all it's doing is numbing you n killing you a lil faster even tho u probably would rather be 6ft under.All the music can only express so much emotion the rest stays bottled up like a soda waiting to be shooken up.
