My Assassin | A Romanogers FanFiction

Cutter's Lullaby

A/N Warning ⛔️ 

Steve POV 

There were little red and white lines on the top of her forearms. Oh my god. I slowly switch hands so she didn't realize what I was looking at. Same thing on the other arm. Some were older some look like they were done yesterday.

"Natasha," I said 

"Yes" she replied 

"What are these" I grabbed her hand a showed her She pulled her hand away 

"And these" I showed her her other arm

She pulled both of her hands away.

"What are they Natasha" I raised my voice 

I realized that was the worst move I could have done. With one quick swipe, she was up and running to the bathroom. While on the way to the bathroom she grabs her phone, headphones, a notebook, and a pencil. She was gone like that. 

"NATASHA...... come back I'm sorry," I said 

Natasha POV 

My secret was out. The one thing I didn't want him to find out. I've cut myself. I've cut myself for years. I've cut myself before I was even 9. It helps me a lot. It's bad for me but can't help it. It feels good. I locked the door. Grabbed the razor from The bag that I put in the bathroom. I pulled his sweatpants off. Sat down against the door. Turned in my music and started my art on my thigh. I start to carve a 12 into my thigh. Slowly but surely it started to turn red till it bleed. I then went over the 537 that was also carved into my thigh. That scar will never go away because I go over almost every night. I whispered to myself as I cut 

Go to sleep and close your eyes,
And dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wings against a thorn.
You know the pain that they have endured

Silver metal shine so bright
Scarlet blood that feels so right.
Dream of that blood trickling down,
And wake up just before you drown.
The moonlight shining off your tears
As you bleed out your worst fears.
So tonight when you start to cry
Whisper the cutters lullaby:

Hushabye baby, you're almost dead
You don't have a pulse and your pillow is red.
Your family hates you
Your friends let you bleed
Sleep tight with a knife,
Cause it's all that you need.
Rockabye baby, Broken and scarred,
You didn't know life would be this hard.
Time to end the pain you hid so well
And down you'll come baby,
Straight back to hell

Steve Pov 

I got up and ran after her. She shut the door in my face, locked it. I fucked up again. AGAIN. 

"Natasha please open the door" I asked in a pleading tone 

No answer except a whisper from her mouth that she was saying to herself. I sat there. 

"Natasha please" 

"NO"

I broke down crying. She was in there doing who knows what. About two hours of me sitting there I got up and went to the bed. I fell asleep on accident. 

Natasha POV 

It's 5 am I have cut, listen to music and draw. But I cut the most. I also cut my hair. I walked out of the bathroom and walked over to the bed. I laid down but I kept my distance. Why would he want me to sleep in the same bed as him when I just locked myself in the bathroom from 4:00. I tried to keep my distance but that's hard when you have a human side body heater right next to you. I trued but I failed. I pushed myself back into Steve who was sleeping on his side. He immediately grabbed my waist even if he was sleeping he knows my body and my body heat. I fell asleep about 2 minutes later. 

Steve POV 

The wait immediately changed on the bed I woke up. She was laying far away from me but after a while she pushed herself in to me and fell asleep. I brushed the hair out of her face. But I couldn't. It just keeps falling back to her face so I left it. 

I woke up around 7:00 on my side Steve face resting on my stomach. I had my arms around his head. I move just a little and Steve woke up 

"Babe go back to sleep" he said into my stomach 

" I don't want too" Natasha go back to sleep

I went back to sleep. I woke up about two hours later and Steve was know we're to be found. I came back to sences and heard the shower running. I grabbed my phone off the side table and look at my social media. About five minutes later I heard the water turn off. He walked out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist. He walked over to his suitcase.  My social media can wait. I got up and walked over to him. He's to sexy to just not talk to. I looked up at him. He looked me straight in my eyes like he was burning a whole through them. 

Hey baby girl. I like your hair. He is the only one I would allow to say that. I stayed quite. I cut me self some side bangs. I ran my finger down the middle of I abs. He kissed me on the four head. He pick up jeans and a dark green shirt. I walked out and to the couch. He walked out and walked over to me . 

"I can't get ahold of mason" I said 

"Do you know anyone else's you know" he asked 

"Yeah but I haven't talk to her in 17 years" I said 

"Oh" he said 

I walked over to the kitchen and grab pancakes mix and a bowl and started to mix things together. 

"Let me handle that baby" he said as he grab the bowl from me 

"But" I said 

And with that he went to the spoon that was I was mixing with. He had one a on the bowl and one on the spoon created a little space in between his arms. I ducked down and stood up in the circle. I turned around to him.

"I'm going to take a shower" I said 

"Okay... first Kiss me please" he said 

"Fine" I said 

I got up on my tip toes and kissed him like I did when we were on the escalator in 2014. 

"Thank you" he said with a smile on his face 

I shook my head and walked away and in to the bed room. 

Clint POV 

I was above there hotel room in the vent above them. They just kissed. THEY JUST KISSED. Omg.  Natasha walked away and that's when something bad happen. I fell into the fucking room. But I landed on my feet. I just gave myself away. SHIT. 

"Hey Clint.... Wait Clint why the fuck are you here" Steve said 

"Uh I was.. we'll see me and Natasha did this thing we're we would follow each other on mission and spy on them.. so I'm doing that" I said 

" Omg" he said 

Steve POV

Then something worst happen. Natasha walked out of the room. 

"What the hell" she said 

"Sorry" Clint said

She grab his ear and dragged him and I mean DRAGGED him in to the bed room. They walked out about a minute later. Clint had a black eye and Natasha had a mad expression on her face. She walked over to me 

"Calmed down" I said 

She stood right next to me. Clint stood on the other side of the island. We both listen to Clint. 

"I still hate you"  Natasha said 

"But why" Clint whined 

"Because I was trying to have a relaxing time on vacation and now your here and your going to be all up in our business" she said 

"I'm just going to leave" Clint said. 

Natasha POV 

Clint left for now. But how long is that going last. 

A/N Wwwaaasssuuppp. Hi I'm this is this chapter all I'm going to say is nothing so bye.