Have you ever been taught that love was for children? They fell in love. Well, I had that happen to me. But here is the catch. I the world's deadliest assassin fell in love with America's golden boy.
Warning: Talks about
-Suicide
-Sexual Scene
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We pulled up to the church. I feel out of place so out of place. I'm not a Christian I'm far from a Christian. I will probably go to hell for the stuff I have done. I walked over to Steve's side of the car and whispered in steve's ear " I feel out of place" do you want to go home "No no "Let's go. He grabbed my waist and we started walking up to a guy steve started to talk. I just looked around, stood there quietly. After a while, we walked into service.
Two hours later
We walked out of the service he leaned down and whisper in my ear "You okay" Ya I'm fine. On the way back it was silent but peaceful. He was fidgety and nervous about something but what. His hand was on the gear shift, I put my hand on top of his and ran my finger over his knuckles. "Do you mind?" I asked as I was hooking my phone up to the car "no no no at all"? The songs I play are
Killing Boys by Halsey
Ashley by Halsey
Clementine by Halsey
Colors by Halsey
Still Learning by Halsey
Fuckyounoah by Noah Cyrus
I stop the music so we could talk
" You okay" ya I'm fine I just nervous "about what" I just don't want to mess it up again. "You won't I promise okay"
Steve POV
She could see right through me but I couldn't see right through her. Years of breaking down the walls she had up for years and then I mess it up like that. Now I can see why she has those walls but it's like I have broken through so many of them but one more gets built every time just so you can't see the real her that no one knows not even Clint. I don't think she even knows the real her she goes with what people call her and she fine with her. "Tell me about your past" I could feel the pulse go up. She looked at me "Why" I don't know I'm just interested. " I mean you don't have to tell me," I tell you later "okay".
We pulled up to the compound and got out of the car. Tony came up to me "Where were you" we were at church " didn't think Romanoff was a church type of woman" She asked if she could come so I said yes. Well I'm going to go upstairs and change "okay" I was walking away "hey Sharon is on a mission for the night" and Me and Romanoff a going on a mission tomorrow morning at 4:30 "Okay".
I walked inside and up the stairs to my room. I walked into my room and Natasha's clothes were everywhere. I knock on the bathroom door. "Come in" she was sitting in my bathtub. " come in with me" Natasha "please" Fine. I stripped down and got in. I sat on top of me I held her waist. Tell me, please. "Well, I was born in Stalingrad, Russia on November 22, 1989, at 7:00 in the morning. I lived with my parents and little brother Hunter till I was 7 and then the house burned down to the ground the flams it was so hot that they thought they disintegrate my body but it turns out I ran into the woods and to the next town over was homeless for a week. In till a guy named Ivan Petrovich Bezukhov pick me off the streets and brought me to a so-called orphanage. Everything was fine in till I was forced to dance for hours on end in till they said I was done. By the time I was 9 I knew how to kill, fight, dance, and everything in between. When I was 10 they put me in a program called the black widow program with 32 other girls and we had to see who the best was and the only way to do that was to kill each other and somehow I was the last one after one year. The last part of the program was killing a final person which I tried not to do for 2 years and was punished for it. Now the punishments were getting beaten half to death or rape. But in those two years someone name James came. He would convert me and help me through a lot of things and slowly but we started to fall in love. Now let remember you are trained that love is for children. So when they found out he disappeared and I was raped and beaten a lot more. Then I did it and as soon as I walked out of that room I was thrown on an operating table and wheeled into surgery where they stareiled me. She started to tear up I rubbed my finger across her knuckles. It makes everything easier even killing but all I want when I grew up was to have kids and they took that from me too. They didn't numb me they just started to cut and that all I can remember because I was in so much pain. After that, I was given the name the black widow and transferred me to the KGB when I was 13 and work as a sleeper agent for 2 years in till I was taken back to Russia and to the Red Room were the force to me be married to a man named Alexi who was 16 at the time and I was 15. I would go on a mission and on one of my mission I meet the winter soldier then figure out that they brainwashed him. So he didn't remember me. Then they figured out that I fell in love with Alexi and Then presumed to kill I'm right in front of my eyes and by that time I was 17. That week I escaped. I ran for days in till I felt I was far enough away to rest so I sat down against a tree and woke up with a Clint Barton starting at me and like I said before he was sent there to kill me and he made a different call. Changed my name and started to work for S.H.I.E.L.D and been working for them for 18 years". Sat up and grabbed his hand and hugged her. We got out, got dressed, and headed to her parent's place.
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A/N Hello my fellow Romanogers shippers here is this chapter. This is how I think her life would play out until she started shield. So I hope you like it.
