Lypophrenia《Zhanyi version》

Chapter 7

9 years ago

November the third

Where are you, Zhan?

Why didn't you come?

I was waiting the whole day . . .

I miss you . . .

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9 years ago

November the fourth

I hoped to see you today . . .

You didn't come. . .

Why . . . ?

Did I do something wrong . . . ?

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9 years ago

November the fifth

Why don't you come back . . . ?

I promise to be a good boy . . .

I promise to do everything you ask for . . .

Please . . .

Just come back to me, Zhan . . .

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9 years ago

November the sixth

Why did you leave me without telling . . . ?

I will wait for you . . .

But are you outside there waiting for me too . . . ?

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9 years ago

November the seventh

I had stared at the night sky, the stars were dazzling just like your eyes used to do, at least, I think it did . . .

Did you think about me, did I cross your mind these days . . . ?

Do you miss me as much as I miss you . . . ?

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9 years ago

November the eighth

You're fading, I didn't even expect you to stay so long . . .

You fought inside my memories, but now you're blurred . . .

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9 years ago

November the ninth

Will you come back?

Or did you maybe forgot about me?

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9 years ago

November the tenth

My dad said you must have forgotten about me, but I don't think so . . .

Right . . . ?

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9 years ago

November the eleventh

I read my notebook again and again . . .

Searching for a reason why you left me . . .

Was it because you promised to only stay five days . . .

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9 years ago

November the twelfth

How do you make sure a prisoner doesn't escape, Zhan . . . ?

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9 years ago

November the thirteenth

You can make sure a prisoner doesn't escape by never letting them know they are the prisoners . . .

Did you guess that . . . ?

I think you probably did . . .

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9 years ago

November the fourteenth

Today I want to tell you, I'm that prisoner, I was and still am prisoned by your love . . .

Hoping you would remember me . . .

Did you forget about me . . . ?

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9 years ago

November the fifteenth

I'm sorry . . .

I'm sorry whatever made you leave me . . .

I'm sorry, and I hope you can someday forgive me . . .

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9 years ago

November the sixteenth

I made a ship of our names, "Zhanyi" . . . .

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9 years ago

November the seventeenth

Will, I ever recover from the missing pain inside my chest . . . ?

I miss you like always . . .

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9 years ago

November the eighteenth

This is my last note to you . . .

I haven't given up hope, not yet . . .

But my father needs me . . .

The world needs me . . .

And just like you said my future needs me . . .

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9 years ago

November the nineteenth

I'm sorry for what I am going to do . . .

I hope you will forgive me someday . . .

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9 years ago

November the twenties . . .

I will miss you, and you will forever keep living inside my heart and mind . . .

I love you like I never did before . . .

Thank you for teaching me all the beautiful things in life that no one else was willing to show me . . .

Thank you for saving what was broken . . .

Thank you for mending that what I thought wasn't healable . . .

Thank you and goodbye . . .

I loved you and will always continue loving you . . .

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