sixteen and pregnant

starbucks

So Travis didn't seem really happy to see me I mean I don't see that glow that he usually have when he sees me. But then again I don't blame him.

" hey " I said kinda shyly almost like the day I met him he handed me a coffee which I happily took a sip from my nails dung into my skin as he stared at me with evil eyes.

" You know what's so hard to take right now .. That my heart is still aching and yearning for you while your sitting here pregnant with no baby daddy. Do you understand how I feel . "

I bit my bottom lip and stared hard at Travis I dug deeper into my skin. " Travis I'm so sorry..."

" No!!!! " he rudely interrupted " Did u even tell him .... Did u ????"

I stared at Travis " When your preganat its a lot of pressure and needs a lot of confidence to tell somebody that the baby growing inside them is theirs you know what u mean..???"

Travis showed a face of hurt and flashed it back to anger ." The worst thing is that its not even mine ... " he wouldn't even stare at me " Venice I wanted to have a child with you ."

Tears started to come to my eyes " which is exactly the reason why I wanted you to leave me travis making it harder then it already is soon I'm gonna become homeless with this baby I have growing inside me , my mom won't accept this."

" Yes and guess what Venice I can't either."

Now I was really crying " I'm sorry "

" yes and I'm sorry to ..." He handed me a thin slip of paper " Call me sometime just in case if you need anything "and he got up and left. I jumped out my chair causing my hip to make the table fall over and rushed to the bathroom I cryed and vomited. I came to a new town and acted retarded and what I did lose my virginity as fast as I can . I wiped my hand and realized I had some red dots on my fingers all that pressure caused me to dig deep in my skin letting me bleed soon my tears became a mixture of blood and tears.

As I walked home at around six my mouth dropped open at the sight in front of me , my mom was having ...... In the street with some guy the street light was shinning in her face.

" Mom " I shouted " wtf are you doing " mom eyes burst open and she seemed shocked.

" Go away Venice I'm trying to get money."

The guy came out of my mom and looked at her disgusted " oh you have a child oh hell naahh" he zipped up his pants " Bye whore " he ran off. Mom looked at me upset

" thanks a lot Venice you should've left me alone."

" Why you was supposed to change."

Mom zipped up her pants " And guess what dumbass that would've happened once he handed over the hundred thousand dollars."

I folded my arms and shakes my head in disbelief " he wasn't gonna give you no hundred thousand dollars ."

" Yes he was" mom was becoming stern

" Let me tell you the definition of what people think you are...... A person with no life that guys. Can easily lie too and nothing but a worthless whore !!!" I looked at her , you can tell her feelings were hurt but I thought It was time to tell the truth ?" That's the definition of who you are." Mom grabbed her jacket and stormed off to the cold."Mom where are you going ???? I'm sorry " I said quickly sucking back all that I have said.

" Away from my crooked bitchy daughter that was just a mistake !!!!! " She rushed out into the cold right after she said that . I was about to storm off as well or sit down and cry but I end up throwing up instead and with an empty stomach. Thats it I was throwing up in this frigid afternoon every moment made me shiver as the wind rushed through me. I sat down in my pool of vomit and started to cry I really understood why I'm not wanted in others eye because I can't even want or like my self.

After an hour or so I ran home took a shower and sat down on my bed rubbing my belly comfortable.and I acutally smiled at the thought that I will actually have someone who'll want me. And need me In my everyday life.

I watched a movie will Kate spaghetti ice cream chips and cookies when your pregnant you gotta huge aappetite its not even funny.