Crown of Eight | Bts royalty au

Chapter 48

The day passed by and so did the night. I was exhausted and tired as hell after hours of practicing to the speech that wasn't even useful. I wasn't even going to say any of that shit. When I woke up and thought about it all the next day I got the anxious feeling I've been trying to avoid the whole time, but this morning, it was so strong that I couldn't ignore it. Imagining myself tomorrow, standing in front of the whole nation and saying those words no one ever would think of to say had scared the hell out of me. The fact that there was no point of return didn't really make things better. 

During this day, neither of the princes said anything about me exposing the royal family's secrets to literally everyone, like I thought they would. Especially now since the speech would take place tomorrow. At first, I thought they were behaving a bit odd, for example avoiding eye contact, avoiding conversations and so on. However, I knew that it was just my paranoid and anxious mind that was playing with me. I was probably the one behaving odd since I couldn't think of anything else than tomorrow. Have I even prepared myself that I was risking my life? That I could die? That I would die?

I wanted to talk to the princes to perhaps gain some confidence or to get support, but I was scared they would ignore me or beginning to think of it more when I reminded them of it, so I never talked to them. Not even during the evening when we all hung out in Jimin's room and they all seemed a little tense. Even though they had held speeches before, they were still a bit nervous and I understand that. It's scary as hell.

"Are you nervous?" I asked Jimin when the other ones had left to go to sleep. He looked at me seriously and nodded. He didn't say anything else than that and I don't think he wanted me to ask something more so I didn't. He pulled me close and let his plump lips kiss all over my neck before going to my lips. It was slow, but it was good. His hands cupped my cheeks and then he let them roam over my body.

I fell asleep in his arms, scared as hell, because tomorrow the speech would take place. Tomorrow everything will change.

-

We woke up early as we had been commanded to do. The speech would take place in the afternoon, but we still had a lot to do, dressing up for example. After the tense breakfast the princes were led to their maids and I was lead to mine as well, Mi-sun.

She had a bright smile on her lips when I met her. She was existed to have the chance to dress me up more beautifully than ever. I tried to play along, but she still noticed my nervousness clearly. She thought though that it only was about holding the speech, which is partly was, but what I feared the most what the content of my speech and the consequences of it. I really hope that Gi had succeeded to hide all those we love.

The makeup took about 2 hours, so did the hair. I had begged Mi-sun to keep my makeup and hair as natural as possible and she did her best. However, I knew she had to do more than usual to not upset the queen who only thought I was pretty enough with a lot of makeup and volume in my hair.

I noticed how Mi-sun scrunched her eyebrows, slightly confused, as I looked at my reflection in the mirror when she was completely done. Tears were filling my eyes.

"Y/N? Are you okay?" She softly asked and I nodded immediately, forcing myself not to cry to not mess up her 4 hours of work.

"I'm fine." I answered and looked at the dress, the dress that was the reason I wanted to cry. It reminded me so much of the one my mother had gotten for me for the Great Election. The only difference was that this looked much more expensive, it had a lot of more silver details and it was even more uncomfortable, but in general, they were very similar. It was made out of silk and shrouded my body perfectly. Just like the other one, the top part was dark pink and further down it faded out in light pink. Furthermore, she let me wear ballerina shoes knowing I sucked walking in heels.

"Do you like it?" She asked nervously since she had gotten the impression that I was not liking it at all, but it was the opposite. I could have been forced to wear something way worse than this.

"No, no, I love it. I feel pretty. Thank you." I said and smiled at her. She smiled back, relived that I was satisfied.

"What happens now?" I asked and she was about to answer, but in the same moment, it knocked on the huge door leading to the walk in closet. She glanced at me before approaching the door and opening it. There, the king and queen stood with ten guards behind them. I gulped and didn't move a muscle.

"Are you done?" The queen coldly questioned, and Mi-sun nodded while staring at the ground, not daring to take even one step closer to the royals.

"Are we going to wait for you all day?" The queen shouted to me when I didn't move and I swallowed hard while beginning to walk towards them. 

Two guards walked in front of the king and queen and two walked behind them. Behind those two guards I was walking, and behind me two other ones were walking. I also had two on each side of me, so the king and queen could be sure I was following them the whole time and that I was not going to do anything stupid.

"Y/N?" I could hear the king say.

"Umm, yes?"

"Do you know what happens now? Do you know the schedule?"

"No... No I don't." I answered and suddenly they stopped walking. They stopped so intensely that I almost bumped into one of the guards in front of me. The two guards in front of me stepped aside and the king and queen turned around to face me. Automatically I took a step backwards, only to get closer to the guards behind me.

"Of course you don't." The queen sighed. Fucking bitch.

"Now, we are going to eat a quick lunch before practicing the speeches one last time. After that we will gather on the highest floor in front of the balcony at 4.30 pm sharp. Then we will go through the order of the speeches and everything that happens in between. After that a large dinner will take place in the great hall, similar to the one when the princess, you, was announced. Do you understand?" The king stared at me the whole time to be sure that I was listening.

"Yes, I understand." I nodded and the king lifted the corner of his mouth, a bit surprised that I wasn't talking back at all or even giving them a bitchy look. He didn't know what was going on inside of me though, that he couldn't see. He couldn't see that my whole body was burning and that my mind was like a mirror, about to break in thousands of pieces any second.

"Good."

We continued walking until we had approached the dining hall. The princes were already seated, which I was so grateful for. Otherwise I would have been forced to sit with the king and queen alone until the princes' arrived. Ew.

The princes were very handsome. They were all wearing navy blue suits along with black ties. Their hair was brushed through carefully and it was literally perfect. "It's impossible to be perfect", they say, but these princes' appearances were more than perfect. 

They were staring at me as much as I was staring at them when I walked into the dining hall. Their eyes moved from my head to my toes at least three times before I sat down by the table.

"Woah, you look literally stunning in that dress." Hoseok said while looking at me, his eyes glistening. I blushed and smiled at him.

"Thank you. You look very good as well."

"Stop with that and begin to eat. This day is extremely important!" The queen spoke. She was disgusted by our conversation which only satisfied me. Little did she know that her sons knew that she had been lying to them their whole fucking life. The anxiety I felt decreased a bit when seeing her unpleasant expression - if she is annoyed by us now, just imagine what she would feel during the speech.