✔️Soundtrack To My Life (18+) part 1

Amnesia

Sam 2020

Two weeks ago I had my whole entire life mapped out, I had my Mother's engagement ring  in my pocket, my Dad had given it to me when I was just a teenager, making me promise that, when the time came, it would only ever be given to the woman who I couldn't ever imagine spending the rest of my life without by my side, my one. 

I found her when I was just 15, I was captivated by her beauty, her golden, long, blonde hair and perfect features, the curvature of her body and the melodic sound of her voice, nobody else came close to how I felt about Veronica Kreslin, not in the entire 24 years that I've known her.

When I was 18 I finally worked up the courage to ask her out and for a few short months in '99 she was all mine. I promised her the world, I promised to make her happy everyday and shower her in unconditional love. 

I have very few regrets in life but breaking Veronica's heart tops the list, I was a foolish, teenage boy, I wanted to hurt her because I thought she had done the same to me but she hadn't, she never would have. I cut off my nose just to spite my own face and only had myself to blame when I lost her. 

Without Veronica I am just a broken man, she is the other half to my soul, I learnt that the hard way and vowed that if she ever gave me a second chance to be with her I'd never hurt her like I did that day, I'd never allow her to feel that pain ever again. A promise I had kept until now.

There are moments in life that are unpredictable, like a wanker who runs a stop sign and collides with the woman you're about to propose to or having her wake up from a coma and not remember a single thing about the life you'd built together, instead, the last memory she has of us together is the day I tore her heart out.

I thought I had my whole life mapped out and now it felt like it was being ripped apart at the seams and I was powerless to stop it.

"It's called retrograde amnesia" Dr Papskin said as we stood outside of Veronica's hospital room, handing me a small stack of papers full of information about Veronica's condition, none of which contained how to fix it, I'm sure. "It can happen after a blow to the frontal cortex, the memories that she has are in there but are being blocked"

 It had been a week since she had woken up, a week of her giving me the cold shoulder and demanding that I leave but I never did. Dr Papskin and Dr Stephenson had been working tirelessly, trying to help Veronica regain her memory but so far it seemed that their efforts were futile, it was like Veronica would be permanently stuck in 1999, that was until yesterday, when out of nowhere Veronica started talking about life after I left for university and although it wasn't pleasant hearing about how depressed and heartbroken I'd left her, I couldn't help finding the joy in the fact that she had progressed, it was something new and it gave me hope that more would come.

"Can you fix it? Can't you just take her back into surgery and repair that part of her brain?" I beg him desperately, I just want things back they way they were, I don't want to see my girl being forced to go through misery and pain all over again, that's not fair on her, she deserves to be happy, she's earned it.

"Sam, there's very little I can do beyond this point, I can't just force the memories out of her, the brain doesn't work like that but there have been studies that show the memories may be triggered by seeing photographs and keepsakes." He explains and I suddenly realise what sparked the new memory.

"I brought in that picture  yesterday, of Veronica and her best friend Kate" The picture was taken at their formal, I found it while unpacking the last few items for our new house and I thought it might brighten Veronica's spirits, considering Kate is the only person she wants to talk to right now. It kills me that in Veronica's mind she still believes Bridget betrayed her and refuses to FaceTime with her. "I pretty much hold the key to unlocking all these memories then? Being that I have a ton of photos and items we've collected together throughout the years"