"I just don't understand," Jocie says.
"How do you not understand?" I ask her. "We left and there is no going back."
Jocie and I are currently sitting on my couch, talking about earlier today. She is still mind blown about us leaving and she thinks it's an awful idea to leave everything behind.
"How are you guys going to find a new label, new producers, and a new studio? A new everything."
"We will figure it out," I say.
"What if we don't?" She asks.
I look over at her and we stare right into each other's eyes, "I know that we will figure it all out. We always do. Even if it takes forever and even if we have to go through hell, we always figure it out."
"Okay," she whispers. "I trust you."
I smile and then I scoot closer to her, "I don't know what we are doing," I whisper.
"What do you mean?"
I don't even know if I should be saying this shit. I'm terrified to date again, but I'm here right now with her, so why not just ask her how she feels? Maybe she doesn't feel the same anyways.
"Do you feel it too?" I ask her quietly.
"Yes," she whispers. She comes in closer to me and rests her forehead onto my forehead. I let out a deep breath I've been holding in. "I've just been scared to say anything."
"Why?" I ask.
"Because of Sadie," she states. "I didn't want to overstep and I'm not even sure if you are ready to date yet."
"I think I'm ready," I say confidently.
"The kids aren't."
"But they aren't the ones dating you," I say. "And I know that they will be happy for me in the end."
"Okay," she whispers.
"Okay," I repeat. I lean my lips into hers and they gently press against each other. We move perfectly in sync for a bit until we both pull away from the kiss. She rests her forehead onto mine once again and smiles super big.
"I've been wanting that to happen for awhile now," she says.
I smile, "I've been wanting to do it for awhile now. I guess I just now got the balls to do it."
She starts laughing, "Good to know."
I chuckle, "I'm picking you up tomorrow night."
She pulls her head away from mine, "Why?"
"Date," I say.
"Okay," she blushes, "What time?"
"I'll come get you at six," I say.
"Well what about the kids?"
"That is the perks of them having four uncles that can watch them," I say laughing a bit.
"What a bonus," she chuckles.
[The next day]
I go to pick up Jocie in an hour and I still haven't told the kids that I'm going out on a date. I know that Bri is going to be upset. This will be my first ever date since Sadie died. I'm actually really nervous for it all.
"Kids!" I yell from the living room. "Can you guys come here for a second?"
Colton and Denton come racing down the hall and Bri walks in slowly behind him. Abigal is taking a nap right now. She won't understand the conversation anyways.
