the dream of my life TBDL

the day of my birthday

today is really my B-Day and i thought that i might write a story on how i hope my 17th birthday would go so here we go my name will be mark in this story in case y'all were wondering thanks for listening to me ramble like this but here we go

Mom- Mark wake up. its time to get up now you need to wake up or we will be late to your party at your grandparents house everyone is going to be there.

Me- yeah I'm coming

she leaves my room and i think to myself.. this will be like any other birthday i get everything thing that i asked for except for the thing that i wanted the most. they will never ever get me that even if they knew what it was...

Dad- come on buddy we need to get going if we are going to make it in time

Me- i know almost done be there in a min..

i look at myself in the mirror i look big compared to my family i am taller than my mom, dad, everyone just about. that was one thing that i liked sometimes but i hate it most of the time cause it just meant that i was bigger than everyone and i don't want to be bigger than everyone. in fact i wanted to be smaller than everyone but that will never happen cause my parents always taught me that i need to grow up and get a girlfriend and get a good job. little did they know that i would never find a girl friend because i was gay, but that was beside the point. the point was is that i wanted to be a baby again. when i was a kid i did not have to worry about anything at all but now i have to worry about everything and more.

Mom- its time to go now

i tell her OK and we get in the car and leave for the party which was not that far in fact i could have taken my bike there on the leave but i did not feel like riding my bike today i was bummed out that i was getting older. we arrived at the house and i was greeted by my grand parents and my aunt and cousins they all told me happy birthday and i just put on a fake smile and said thank you.

why couldn't i be normal like everyone else. i went outside and sat on top of the old swing set that i used to swing on when i was little. it didn't have a swing anymore cause it broke off so i climb on top of it and just sit and think about life most of the time. and this was one of those times. my cousin Rebeca found me and asked me why i was out here and not having fun at the party i looked down at her.(she was 7 years old btw) cause i just wanted to get away for a bit. she just looks at me confused about why i did not want to go inside and enjoy the party. she tried climbing up to get to me but couldn't. i told her to go inside and have fun. she turned towards the house and grabbed a lawn chair and set it under the swing set and sat down. i looked at her and smiled.

Me- do you want to know something

Rebeca- what

Me- did you know that you have an easy life right now

Rebeca- what do you mean by that life is fun and easy.

Me- yeah you would think that but when you grow up it's not so easy. in fact it's not much fun either. you should enjoy yourself when your young as much as you can cause when your older you will wish you had.

with that i told her lets go inside and enjoy the party. she looked up at me and smiled yay. we went inside and ate craw fish and crab legs my favorites. after we had cake when i blew out the candles i let Rebeca help me out. i still made a wish even though it would never come true. we ate the cake and went home after i got all of my presents and said my good byes.

when we got home my parents went into the fridge outside and got a box out and brought it inside it was a new Orleans famous king cake they know how much i like randazzo's king cakes so they got me one they put some candles in careful not to find the baby in the cake and lit the candles and said to make another wish so i did. but i said it a little to loud and my mom heard me and didn't say anything cause she saw how red i got when i realized that she heard me. i got a piece and ate it and went into my room and laid down and stared at the ceiling. minuets later my mom walked in. she closed the door behind her and sat next to me on my bed.

Mom- is that really what you want for your wish?

me- i just stared at the ceiling and nodded blushing really badly starting to cry but holding them back hoping that she would leave soon so i can cry but to no avail she staid and kept on asking me question.

Mom- why do you wand to be a kid again.

Me- i looked away and said its not that i wanted to be a kid it was that i wanted to be a baby again by this time i was about to burst out with tears.

Mom- but why.

Me- because i miss being a baby y'all actually liked me and cared for me and i did not have to worry about anything at all. all i had to do was just sit there in my crib and suck on my pacifier and cuddle with my teddy bear and play with my toys and have fun without worrying about anything at all.

now i could not hold it back anymore i just started crying and could not stop she put her hand on my shoulder and just frowned at the sight before her. her child was never happy after all of this time she always kept my old stuff and put it all in the attic. she went up there and grabbed the box with all of my old baby stuff in it my dad thought nothing of it he thought that she was just going to show me how mush i have grown up. she came back into my room and shut the door again. she grabbed something but i did not even hear her bring the box in and did not even hear her come back in or even leave. she just grabbed my old teddy bear and put it in front of me i could not tell what it was cause i was crying after i wiped my eyes i saw what it was i looked at her and she just nodded and said that its ok. so i grabbed it and hugged it as tightly as i could not ever wanting to let it go. she smiled at me and saw that i was still crying. she grabbed a pink pacifier she could not find any other color cause i would always lose them so much except the oink ones i would never use them but she put it in-front of me and smiled at me and nodded at me once more i took it and put it in my mouth and i looked up and hugged her as tightly as i could without hurting her

to be continued..... soon