Before its to late

thoughts and answers

𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖎𝖊'𝖘 𝖕𝖔𝖛   

                                              𝖎 𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖐 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖆𝖓𝖘𝖜𝖊𝖗𝖘 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖒𝖆𝖞𝖇𝖊

                                                  𝖜𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖎 𝖆𝖒 𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖍𝖆𝖘 

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                                                 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖓𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖜𝖍𝖔𝖑𝖊 𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊   

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 I stay up all night trying to figure out why I can see luke and I dug deeper into what alex said before about how maybe I can help luke. 

 I still feel terrible about what happened to luke. 

I finally decide to call it a night. 

The next morning I snuck out early to meet the band to rehearse. Luke was the only one there. My parents never knew I have been going to Julie's, I was keeping it a secret because I didn't want to get him scared. 

I had gotten there and Luke immediately came up to me and gave me the song he wrote for mom.

"wow....this is amazing, but im sorry that your dealing with this."

"ah its fine, anyways"

he immediatly chnages the subject as if even though he had told me the truth he didnt want to talk about it. Now that i knew the pain he was going through I didnt want to bring it up either.

he continues saying "i have been thinking a lot recently about how you can see me"

"I have too" I say

he then replies "i know this sounds crazy but do you think alex could be right?"

"i don't know, he has a good point though. We could try it only if your ready?"

he gives me a sad look with a mix of worry and guilt

"i mean what if we try and nothing happens, i made a mistake ellie i dont want anything else to happen and I definitly dont want you getting hurt, i have gottten my hopes up many times and if this fails I dont know what i would do with myself." he says 

"luke...i know your hurting but you will never know unless you try" 

he looks at me

"luke?"

"fine I will do it" he says still worrried for the future

"awesome, well i have to go to school, see you after?" i say grabbbing my bag

"uh yea! see you after school, love you"

"love you to" we then give each other a hug

"hey luke are we still on for my school performance?"

"of course! i just have to clear my mind today,   a lot has happened and I dont know If I am  ready for whats gonna happen, but enough about me..go to school have a great day!"

I then grab the rest of my stuff and head out the door

I could tell by the look on lukes face he was scared and in pain and I didnt know what to do. I was going to help him some way.