//Doomed//

15

"No, Lea-anne. Wait!" Matthew's voice sounds faintly from behind. I have no plans of hanging around and hearing anything he has to say from this point. I'm done. Completely and utterly done with that man. I quicken my pace. Hoping he gets the hint to just stay the hell away from me. It's like this is a game to him. A game where he always has to win. And to be quite frank, I'm tired of playing it.

I look back, over my shoulder, but keep my pace fast. Seeing he's closing in on me. I shake my head at him in disbelief. Why can he not see what I'm doing here? I don't believe for one second he doesn't know how to take a hint.

"Will you just stop. Damn it!" he curses. Out of breath and visibly annoyed at me.

"What?" i stop, turning around to him and snapping at him. Giving him chance to catch me up. His gaze sets on my face. His eyes piercing into mine. Making it impossible for me to look away. His eyes stay on mine. Hearing his breathing becoming harsher, faster. He breaks the eye contact first. Raking his right hand through his bushy, full bodied hair. I shake my head quickly with glaring eyes. In a way to tell him to hurry with what he has planned to say.

He stares at the ground near my feet as he begins "Don't ever walk away from me again" he tells me sternly. Spoken harshly. But his tone wasn't nasty. So i let him continue before cutting in for my say. Because tonight, is the night I'm telling him to stay the hell away from me. He's not going to keep controlling my life anymore. No longer will i tip toe or fear this man.

The fire is being put out before it blows up in my face.

"Is that it?" i cut in when he stays silent. Rolling my eyes at him. "Just. Stay away from me Matthew" i tell him confidently. Crossing my arms across my chest in a secret way of protecting my heart from him. He can go have his fun. His one night stands. Play his silly games. But not with me. I'm seeing things a lot clearer now. Even though i am fully intoxicated. But i know exactly what I'm doing. And i know it's the right thing to do.

A car pulling up beside us catches both our attention. I step to the side, knowing it's going to be his driver. But a scowl quickly spreads across Healy's face, confusing me. The door opens quickly with force, almost flying into me. I stumble back, my focus on the floor, trying to gain my balance again.

"Watch it!" Matthew spits, in a threatening tone. I shoot my head up, realising it's the guy from the club. As he gets out of the car and stands grinning across at me. I shuffle on my feet, unsure of what the hell is even going on right now. "Don't even think about it!" Matthew speaks again. Only this time it's to me. Has he really just tried telling me what to do? What a silly mistake.

I grin across at Matthew then taking my attention to the stranger from the club. Knowing full well Healy's eyes are on me, i nod back at the guy to tell him yes, as he holds his hand out for me. The car door's still open. With music blasting loudly from it. A long with two other guys sat in the back.

"I swear to god, Lea-anne!" Matthew growls through gritted teeth. To my enjoyment.

"Who's the cunt?" club guy asks, looking at me amused and pointing to Matthew with a throaty laugh.

Matthew quickly pulls his phone out of his pocket. And joins in with a fake, forced chuckle. Cutting the guy off and confusing him before a fist is swung in his face.

The guy stumbles back into the car, his back hitting the side of it, followed with a grunt as he cups his nose. My eyes go wide with shock. Annoyance boiling my blood as i dart my eyes to Matthew. He gives me a look, shrugging his shoulders with a nod to say 'i warned you'.

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"No. I can't. I've got a stitch!" i complain through giggles, grabbing my side. I lag behind Matthew. Keeping hold of his hand as he pulls me through the dark, random streets. Trying to find a hide out from running away from the angry club guy and his friends.

"You're so unfit" he shakes his head, teasing. Still pulling me along before we get to a random wall of someone's garden. I jump up, taking a seat on the 4 foot wall. Matthew stands in front of me, placing his hands on my cold, bare thighs.

"Don't" i beg quietly. I can't be doing with the skin to skin contact. Not now. Not when my mind is set on having nothing else to do with him. I can't. It's too risky. We're complete opposites in every possible sense.

The tingles rush away from my body the instant his touch leaves me. Suddenly making me pine for it back. Realising just now how difficult my plan is going to be. He takes a small step back, putting some distance between us. And my heart sinks.

"Why did you do that?" i ask curious. Needing to know because i don't get him or the things he does. I don't get how he can be so hot and cold with me all the time. Like he has an on / off switch. Like he only turns it on when it suits him. And seems to always be the time when i want him the most. Like he knows.

"What?" he shrugs like he's not following. But from his facial expression i see he gets exactly what I'm meaning.

I giggle lightly "attack every guy that even looks at me?" i chew on my bottom lip, nervously waiting for his answer.

"Sorry for caring" he scoffs. All of a sudden cold with me.

I nod, trying to fake a smile to hide the slight hurt from his tone. "Why do you think?" he then adds on. Surprising me. I shrug now, scared to say anything else to him. He takes a step closer to me, back to where he was mintues ago. His hands back on me, warming me up again. He closes his eyes, taking in a deep breath before re-opening them "I can't stay away Lea!" he stares into my eyes again. Capturing me again. Again, having me and wanting me exactly how he wants. "It's impossible" his hands reach up, his fingers sprawling around the back of my neck. Setting me alight from his touch. I close my eyes. Getting lost in the feeling of him.

But it's now or never.

My mind is set and there's no going back. I refuse to play the fool any longer.

I jump down from the wall. Matthew steps back again, confusion written across his face "Well, you're going to have to" i tell him bravely. Daring myself to look him in the face. Aiming to show him i mean what i say.

"Why?" he demands to know quickly. His voice rushed and sounding slightly panicked.

Here we go with hot and cold again. Again we're at opposite places with what we want.

I have to drop my focus to the floor when his expression stuns me and leaves me feeling guilty "Because..." i shrug. Unsure of how to word it. "Because-"

"Because what?" he becomes impatient. Grabbing my face to make me look up to him. I push him off of me.

"Beacuse we want different things"

"Do we?" he asks, genuinely sounding like he's clueless.

"Yes!" i practically shout. "You want, casual. When it suits you. I want... full on" i admit embarrassed, after promising myself to never open up to this man again. Especially with my feelings. "Plus your... girfriend" i shrug, staring at the floor.

"Ex" he says quickly. And i have to find all the strength in me to hide the damn smile threatening to spill across my face.

His hands suddenly spread around the sides of my face. Pulling me in to him slowly. He plants a soft, warm kiss on my forehead. Then rests his on mine for a moment "Lea" he breathes... making me look up at him "come back to work for me".

His demand, question, whatever the hell it was - leaves me confused. How quickly he's changed and basically dodged the conversation annoys me slightly.

I sigh. Realising all this has just been pointless, yet again. Impossible, as always.

I lose it suddenly "What. Just so you can keep an eye on me!" i snap. Showing him I've had enough.

"Gotta keep an eye on my girl" he nudges his shoulder into me, playfully. Watching me...

I try. But i fail. And a huge smile takes over my face "Wha- Like....

He grins back at me with a nod. "We try. And we fail. So why fight it?" he tells me with those firing eyes. Like dark Healy has just set back into play.

But to be honest with you. Dark Healy is my favourite Healy.