I walked to lunch basically have an anxiety attack. My heart was racing like crazy, my whole body was shaking, and I couldn't think straight. I started to panic, this was the only time I could have quality time with my the Ducks inside of school. I couldn't even imagine lunch without them. I kept walking trying to stay calm. I finally arrived in the cafeteria and started to look around for the gang. I haven't spotted any of them. All of the sudden I see Charlie...with girls crowding him. My heart sank. I wanted to cry, just die. I really like Charlie and now I feel like I always have. He looked so happy with all those girls crowding him. They were all the most popular and prettiest girls in my grade.
"Hey Mia," I heard someone from behind say with an evil laugh.
I snapped my head around to see Charlie on Tiffany LeSure's arm. He looked so happy with her.
"Excuse me while I go barf," I said to Tiffany and Charlie.
With saying that, I walked out of the cafeteria. I ran to the bathroom, and shut my self in a stall. I had my stuff with me and I was looking at everything trying to get my mind off of what just happened. I broke down crying in the stall. I found my blades in my pencil pouch, I've been clean for months. I rolled up my sleeve, took out my blades, and made 13 fresh cuts on my left arm. Blood was everywhere on my arm, I grabbed toiley paper and wrapped it around my arm. I wrapped my arm with a thick layer of toilet paper hoping my arm would stop bleeding. I took out some tape from my pencil pouch as well and started to tape the toilet paper so it would be secure.
I took out my phone and saw that lunch was almost over. I walked out of the stall and looked in the mirror, makeup was everywhere on my face. I grabbed a paper towel near the sink and made sure it was damp by pitting it under water. I wiped off my makeup, but realized my eyes were still bloodshot red from crying. I just ignored it and walked out of the bathroom. Luckily no one came in while I was in there.
I walked back into the cafeteria, making sure no one could notice me. I sat at a table with my friends, not noticing the Ducks were there...everyone except Charlie. Who was sitting with Little Miss Bitch Ass Tiffany.
"Hey Mia are you ok?" I heard Adam ask.
I was sitting between Adam and my friend Lana. I nodded my head, while still having my head down. I didn't even eat lunch...I haven't eaten anything in almost three days anyways.
"Mia answer," I heard Luis say.
"What?" I said quietly.
"Are you ok?" my friend Jenna asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine I promise," I replied.
"Are you sure about that?" Fulton spoke.
"No..." I whispered to myself.
