dear d. ,
So I've been doing research on how to kill myself . like what methods are the most painful and take the longest. I've decided to
Overdose. I will start collecting . I've decided to go it on my birthday , quite ironic really . the day I die is the day I'm born . HA !! I hope I can make it though . dad has isolated me again from the kids tells me I'm just like her and tells the kids not to talk to me . the only way I can communicate is in school. I guess if he could take me out if school he would do that as well . he scared me as I cut my arms all up and he found out. He made me take my sweater off and ;
He took pictures . they were bleeding all the cuts because he grabbed my arm aggressively. He looked at my arms & me in disgust I grabbed my sweater cautiously and tried putting it back on . he ripped it from my hands and started screaming at me . " you wanna destroy this fucking family , you want these kids taken away from us . that's what you want " he then rubbed my cut up shoulder hard and fast "you enjoy pain so fuckin much . DOES THIS FEEL GOOD? HUH? AWNSER ME ? " I shook my head no and he screamed "THATS NOT A FUCKING ANSWER" . he grabbed my mirror and smashed it on the floor . after continually screaming at me he called my little sister . she had to pick up the broken mirror . he looked at me and seethingly said "your moving in with to your sisters room " . . . I don't know d. I guess everyday it gets worse.. But I'll try to make it . . to my birthday .
-C.a
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soon to be suicide
Aléatoirethis is a true story . and it will trigger you most likely but I would really like you to read it. . because there are some questions and some answers that you should read .
