I don't know what I'd ever do without you
From the beginning to the end
You've always been here right beside me
So, I'll call you my best friend
Through the good times and the bad ones
Whether I lose or if I win
I know one thing that never changes...
It seem like I have lost all faith in god, It seem like I just wanted to give up everyday but I kept going. I never cried so much in my life but life came at me full speed that I had to slow down. Leaving the hospital that night made me realize that I had to appreciate the people around me a little more. I had to hug my people a little more and that's what I did I can't take life for granite anymore.
Key was so strong, the fight he put out made him Lion hearted couldn't nobody tell him shit. He beat all odds and came around after weeks, months but he never once left us. When he got better we talked more not how we use to but we was still bestfriends. I was helping him get back on my feet pregnant and all because I knew he would do the same. I pushed everybody away from me until he got better he don't say it but I knew the respect was there.
"Kay." I felt small hands push on my stomach it was five in the morning when I looked at my clock and I was just laying in bed. "Kay sista woke up." Baby Banks little voice said she moved to the side so I could I swing my feet off the bed. I put my feet in my house shoes picking her small body up going towards "Zay" Room. Every light in my home was on so I got to her room in no time. She filed her room with small high pitch cries.
"Awww mama it's okay." I looked down at her and smiled she was so gorgeous she came out looking just like me well a little. I loved her skin complexion so much, her hair was all me but she was her father daughter. "What's wrong ? Huh ? Who did it ?"
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Her cries start to come down when she got use to my voice. "Yeah it's okay who did it ?" I asked again picking up her smelling her clean skin.
"I didn't do it." Banks said fast shaking her head side to side making me laugh. "Nope."
"I know you didn't baby she's just hungry. What about you are you hungry?" She nodded her head this was the time they got up like it was normal. "Okay house shoes on feet for you Banks, paper change for your sister then kitchen."
"Where daddy ?"
I had laid Zay'lnn down on her changing table and closed my eyes hoping she didn't ask because I didn't know. When I said pushed people away he was one but I was so hurt that my best friend was hurt that I didn't know I was treating him so bad. I kinda went through my last month pregnant with Zay alone he didn't care about nothing but the block. That same block that didn't love him so I moved out and into the home that Key got me that alone made him kinda hate me more.
The love I have for Durk is still so real and I want him back and I want my family to work. If I call him right now he would give me attitude he hates me when I love him so much it was kinda sad. Key always saying sorry because he felt like he made my relationship go down hill but he didn't I was the one not playing my part. I was doing to much trying to keep everybody happy but now I'm so unhappy.
