Fix me,Broke me. Why?

Chapter 16

The next days was a blur.

I didn't know exactly how I manage to avoid V, hindi ko din alam kung bakit ko siya iniiwasan siguro kase ngayon lang nag si-sink in sakin na may gusto nga ako saknya.. F*ck!

"Since, you are all graduating syempre kasali kayo sa acquaintance.. And it is mandatory na magpunta we will add it up sa extra curricular activities nyo"

I heard a lot of groans from my classmates pero natakot naman ako sa ngiti ng mga kaibigan ko..

I gave them "what are you thinking look" and they just shrug me out.

Natapos ang klase na puros anouncement lang naman..

"Bitch lets go to the mall, I think we need to shop"

Aya ni joselle.

Oh that's explain why they are grinning from ear to ear.

"Kayo nalang, i still have class today" - trix

"Hay nako, trix hindi mo naman kase need mag take ng unit sa psychology.." - joselle

"But i want it, i really really like how mind works and all"

"Well sorry but i will ditch you girls today, we have this group activity sa bio and i need to be there or they will kick me out" - rachel

"Whatever, bye na"

She give us all a kiss sa cheeks and go.

So that leaves us 2 alone.

"So have you think about it alex?"

"About what?"

"About your feelings for him"

"Yes and thank you for poisoning my mind"

"We didnt do anything bitch, it is already in there we just let you know it is."

"Ayun nga, hayss.. Hindi ba parang sobrang aga pa para maka move on ako kay renjie?"

"Yes, if we are talking about time but we are talking about your feelings which is you really cant control, sa sobrang powerful ng puso, kaya nyang tumibok kahit habang nasasaktan.. Pero alan mo ba na mas mahirap yang ganyang pagmamahal"

Napakunot naman ang noo ko sa sinabe nya.

"Kase doble yung effort ng puso mo sa pagtibok ngayon, mas doble yung bigay niyang pagmamahal kesa sa binigay mona noon.. Dahil nga nakayang magmahal kahit wasak pa sya mas malaki yung chance na kapag nabuo sya ng yung pagmamahal na yun ikasisira mona kapag nasaktan ka "

"Natatakot ako bes, kase tama ka.. I dont know what to do now.. Sa ikli ng panahon na nakilala ko siya sobrang bilis nyang napasok yung mundo ko.. Sobrang laki ng pagbabago, natatakot ako na baka isang araw mawala nadin siya bigla kagaya ni renjie at baka dun ako sa point na yun magbreak down"

"Kaya ba iniiwasan mo siya?"

"How did you know? "

"Actually for the past days, lagi niya kaming tinatanong if ayos ka lang ba or kung anong balita sayo.. At saka tuwing nagpupunta kami ni rachel sa gym to watch them sa practice wala siyang ibang bukang bibig kundi namimiss ka na niya.. Pero alam mo ba, I m happy dahil alam niya yung dapat gawin, hindi ka ba nagtataka na bakit hindi ka na nya kinukulit? Kase sabi niya napansin daw niyang aloof ka sakanya and you are not replying to his text and you're not answering his calls kaya sabi niya baka daw nabibgla ka and you need time to cope up.. Kaya he is giving you time and space kase kung handa kana daw na papasukin siya kusa ka naman daw lalapit and that time hindi ka niya papakawalan.. He is so man and sweet, ewan ko nalang talaga alex kung hindi ka pa maka move on ng tuluyan kay renjie.."