MY TURNING POINT

12.

I cried and cried. I did not know what was happening around me I was trapped in my memories. Taylor came into my room and he never saw me cry like this.
"HOPE calm down" Taylor whispered
He held me tight I didn't know what to do I can't stop crying. The tears fell effortlessly
"Hope you're scaring me please"
I did not talk a word I could not even if I wanted to. I just cried and cried. The years that I had been holding back came rushing back.
"Hello?" Taylor talked in the phone
"Yes Taylor?" Edward answered
"Edward can you come home now"
"Ya what's wrong?"
"It's Hope, come home I don't know what to say"
"Taylor you're scaring me please tell me what happened"
"I can't she is scaring me please come home"
"I am coming. I will be there in 5 minutes Taylor "
"Okay" then hung up I was still crying the memories of my mom,dad,sister all came I didn't know what to do. I felt emotional. I did not ask for this life all I wanted to have a good family and a happy life. Why is my life so complicated? What did I do to have this complicated family? Why?
I could not stop tears from falling from my eyes. Then Edward burst open the door and came into my room he saw me. I heard an audible gasp. He came up to me and lift me up and carried to his room and muttered a soft thank you to Taylor.

I thought he he would lay me on his head but instead he carried me to his bathroom and placed me on the counter and went to into my room and brought something's he took my hands which was covering my face placed a cotton ball soaked with makeup remover. He removed my smudged makeup, washed my face, and put my infusion in and stood in between my legs
"Hope look at me" I kept my eyes in my thighs. Then he sighed, he placed is hands on my chin and forced me to look at him
"Hope look at me, I know you won't tell me what happened but you should not bottle up things look what happened, you will burst one day"
"I-I don't know what to do when he asked me about my sister I was okay but the next minute came home. I could not hold it. Why does this always happed to me?"
"Hope can I tell you something I know the timing is not great but I love you Hope not just friends but more than friends" I was shocked he can't love me
"W-What? You can't love me no!"
"Why not Hope?"
"Then you will be stuck with and I am pathetic. No!"
"Is it because you don't feel about me that way"
"No it's not that I-I"
"Be selfish in this tell me do you love me?"
"Yes I do but"
"Then that's it "
He closed the gap between me and him his lips came closed to mine. And our lips moved in sync. I felt a thousands of butterflies flying from me.
"I love you Hope Laughlin"
"I love you Edward Gerard"
He whipped my tears of with his thumb and picked me up and carried me to the dining area
" hey Hope" Leila gave me a sympathetic smile
"Hello Leila" I returned her smile but my voice was gone due to crying a lot
"Hey Edward"
He nodded at her
She served us dinner and I was made to eat almost everything but Edward did not push me this time after that we went back to my room I changed my dress to sweats and camisole. I sat on my bed eyeing my the needle in my hand I did not notice Edward coming into my room, he came and took of the needle and I buried myself into the blanket and Edward he hummed some song I didn't know what song it was but I was too tired to even know what it was as....

I fluttered my eyes open and my throat felt like 2000 nails pinching, my head pwas throbbing. I felt like utter shit
"Good morning Hope"
"Morning?" It came out more like a question
"Ya morning. How do you feel?"
"Like a shit" he laughed
" you look like it too"
"Hey!!" I put my hands over my heart
"Come on let's go eat"
" Ya I will come down"
He left the room I went into my bathroom and looked at my reflection in the mirror. The person in the mirror was broken. Her eyes were swollen and red, the hair was like a bird's nest. Her body was not the great she was fat. I sighed and stripped my dress checked the temperature of the water and hopped in. My body was covered with goosebumps because of the warm water. It felt good to wash the sticky tear stains on my face. I stepped out of the shower and the chill air hit me like ton of bricks I quickly covered with a towel. I put on my work clothes and took my necessary things for the infusion and went down.
"Hey love"
I just smiled at him and laid my things on the counter and started taking the syringes out of their packages.
Edward placed his hand on mine forcing me to look at him.
" I know you don't feel the greatest but you should know that whatever happens, whatever you tell me I will not leave you. Do. You. Understand. Me. "
He asked me sternly. But I just nodded again not trusting my voice.
"Hope talk"
" I do understand Edward but.."
"You don't know what to do with these feelings" he finished my sentence for me like he can read my mind.
"Exactly "
"You should tell me and let it all out okay?"
"Fine.." I looked at the clock it read 8:00" ...I guess I will take the infusion later but I have to go to work"
He raised his eyebrows at me giving me a 'your not going without eating look'.

Author's note:
Hey guys sorry for not posting I was a bit carried away with school the online classes are hectic. Hope you enjoyed this chapter I promise to update faster. Oh and please do vote and comment

-PaviShree