Trust~ {JanusxRemusxVirgil}

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TW: drinking, alcohol addiction, swearing, shouting, angst, crying

P.O.V Janus

Of course we knew there were others, we knew we weren't the only sides.. especially since we had never met our host... But Virgil was the one to go out and search for them... Virgil was the one to meet them.... Virgil was the one to get to know them.. to like them... to stay with them...

I remember the day so, so clearly..

~Flashback~

"So did you have fun with the Lightsides?" I ask Virgil as he walks over to me.
He sighs and pulls his sleeves down over his hands...This is something he always does when he's nervous.
"Are you o-"
"i'm leaving.." Virgil interupts.
"wh-what?"
"I'm leaving. I'm going to the lightsides and i'm not coming back." He snapped
"what did we do?!"
"oh so many things. so many things i can't even begin to list them." Virgil said harshly causing my eyes to swell up with tears..
"Virgil.."

~End of Flashback~

But before i knew it... He was gone... And i started drinking... At first it was one drink every now and then... it soon became one everyday.. two everyday.. three.. And it got to the point i drink so much i dont remember how much.. Today was one of those times..

P.O.V Remus

I come back from the imagination seeing Janus on the couch...with a glass of wine... I've now had enough.

"Janus can you please stop."
Janus hiccupped,"s-stop whattt?"
"Stop drinking!! I'm fucking fed up of it! It's unhealthy!!"
He frowns,"whyy do yOu care?" 
"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU FOR FUCKS SAKE! PLEASE STOP!!"
"No you dont. Don't fucking lie to me. No-one likes me. No-one. So no-one loves me. All i do is fuck up. All i do is make people feel shit." Janus says so.. clearly as if the effects of alcohol just stopped.
"That's not true."
"then why did Virgil leave.? Huh? You did nothing. He loves you. But me? all he does is treat me like shit. Talk about me like i'm nothing."

"Janus...You know thats not true..."

"THEN WHY DID HE TELL ME THAT? HUH?!" Janus screams fallong to his knees , crying

"Because he needed an excuse!" I blurt out

"wh-what?"

"....i need Virgil to explain this... i need..."

"d-dont go... please don't leave me.."

"wh-what?"

"p-please.. I c-cant control what I drink anymore.. i-if you leave i might d-drink more... and i dont want to... i hate it... i hate who i become...but... but it makes me feel... not alone..?"

"not alone? what do you- whats that got to do with- and even so you're not! you have me! Im here!"

"Are you though?! Youre supposed to be my boyfriend but you never pay any attention to me!! You only seem to like me... and spend more time with me when i'm drunk!'

"That's not true!!"

"Yes it is! I may be a liar but im not lying now! All i want is for you to be happy and smile and laugh... and i guess you find me more entertaining when im drunk.. you spend more time with me because i dont think my actions through.."

"I-" I sigh.. He's not wrong.."I can't deny that... but id be happier if you were healthy... and you were happy... i love skber Janus just as much... kf anything more than i lobe drunk Janus.." I feel a tear fall from my eye, great now we're both crying.. 

"Can.. Can we please cuddle.. talk about this later..." I hear Janus say weakly from the floor

"Of course baby.." 

I lay on the sofa, and hold Janus close..

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WOW STRAIGHT IN THERE WITH THE ANGST AND SERIOUD SAD BOI HOURS- SORRY KT WENT KINDA F A S T IM JUST USED TO WRITING ONE SHOTS- I SHOULD GET BETTER HOPEFULLY 👯‍👯‍