My attention for you even if it's not what you need

love me back.

Pov:im killing ur mental health:)

Eiji was trying to read a news paper,while ash was staring out the window.
Heavy winter rain.
Eiji looked at Ash, his mind rushed.
"What if i'll never see him again?"
"should i really leave?"
"will this silly blonde boy be okay without my affection?"
These questions made his body shake,the realization that something bad *might* or *will* happen to Ash was killing him...or,perhaps his love for Ash was.
He met this foolish yet serious boy a couple months ago,and fell hard.
He wanted Ash for himself. He wanted to keep him safe in his arms,so no one could touch him. He wanted to help his precious boy recover.
E:A-Ash,may i hug you...?
A:Oh,my brother wants a hug,sure:)
Eiji slowly wrapped his arms around his beloveds neck.
E:Think I like you best when you're just with me
And no one else,Eiji whispered
A:What did you say onii chan? he laughed.
E:N-nothing!! He passionately rushed his fingers through Ash's hair.
Two hours before Eiji left to the airport...
is this really the end?
A:Hey,i promise,i'll see you again,very soon:)
It made everything disappear,Eiji knew that Ash will never leave him..
two hours passed..Eiji left to the airport knowing that Ash will be there to kiss him again...
Time passed,Ash never showed up. Never.
Not because he fell out of love. Because he died knowing that one person loves him,yet he couldn't keep the promise to be with him.
Eiji was worried,because Ash never replied to his letter,so he wrote a new one:
"Dear Ash
You didn't answer my last letter.I think it's because you are busy packing up your things.
I arranged my room and i bought a futon for you. i also made a list of restaurants i want to take you to.I have to make sure you will fall in love with japanese food. It's healthier abd better for you:)
About me,i started pole vaulting again,because it reminds me of the first day we spent together..
I also let my hair grow because it reminds me of the last day we spent together,but don't worry,when you arrive i will cut it and dye it orange sp that i remind of a pumpkin and you wouldn't dare make fun of me!
That was a joke,of course:)
A few days ago Ibe got a call.He said it was from america.He answered the call and after 10 seconds his face expression changed.
He still refuses to tell me what it was all about,but im sure it was you who called to tell him when you will arrive to japan and you asked him not to tell me to make it a surprise.
I cant wait to see you again.
I just hope you're not alone,because you never pick up your phone,Im waiting for you,and my friends from here are too!:)
verty much love,
Eiji okumakura"

little did he know,Ash will never reply..he is dead.
His body is left to rot,completely alone,in a lonely garave.

STFU I CRIED TO MY OWN STORY