FRIENDS

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 2

Our classes had just ended we bid our goodbye to our professor. I didn't see rina around maybe she went out first. I was about to go when someone spoke.

"𝙃𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙗𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙖 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙤𝙢?" it was lune her ex bestfriend she said preventing her laughter.

"𝙊𝙝 𝙬𝙖𝙞𝙩!𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙤𝙢 𝙡𝙚𝙛𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪!" they burst out of laughter along with her minions. Lune walk closer to me as she poured the cold water onto my head i just stared at the ground balling my fist as tears were forming in my eyes. I run away while they were shouting my name.

"𝙎𝙖𝙗𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙖 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙧!" and continued to laugh.

I was at the schools main door and went out i saw rina there standing. She went to me and said."𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢." Me and rina lived in the same house my father didn't know about this because i was hiding rina from him. We went to our meeting place because we need to get something. Walking in the dark alley me and rina walk towards to a tall guy that was standing there. He was waiting for us.

"𝙂𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙮 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩." The guy spoke with the black mask.

I gave him the money his face turned into satisfaction counting the money countless times and handed me the small pack of weed. Yes it's a weed, i've been using this to relax myself and free myself from stress.

We walked away and make our seperate ways it's currently 6:00pm supposed to be i should be home before 5:30. We are now here infront of our house i was shaking in fear as rina looks at me and said. "𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩." I nodded and sighed knowing what's gonna happen next as i twist the door knob slowly opening the door. I saw there was no one at the house maybe father is asleep. But i was wrong someone pulled my hair and shouted at me.

"𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙞𝙩 𝙞𝙨?!?"
he slap me harshly. My cheeks were red my tears again is starting to fall down. My father grab his belt as i saw the belt i felt the sting pain on my back. I screamed.

"𝙎-𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥 𝙥-𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚.."i was stuttering and cried so loud.

"𝙔𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙖 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙣!"

"𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚!"

"𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙤 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩!"

"𝙄𝙩'𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙪𝙡𝙩 𝙬𝙝𝙮 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙡𝙚𝙛𝙩 𝙢𝙚"

the same words echoes in my mind before i fainted.

i woke up it was dark i'm still laying down on the floor. Dried tears. I saw glasses of beers, broken furnitures, i stood up i hissed in pain after what happened earlier i saw rina standing beside me and help me. We are now in my room i pulled up my hoodie there was alot of bruises and my body is skinny. I sat down on the floor and pulled out the small packet of weeds and started. Minutes later my mind is a mess. Dizziness. That's why i decided to sleep and take my sleeping pills.

This past few days rina and our new friend is not so nice to me. They cling everywhere and I drag them along. Those days I can’t smile, or laugh. I can barely walk. And those are just the days. During the nights, and the moments I’m alone they often gets me. Both of them crawls into my lap, wrap their arms around my neck, and rests their head on my shoulder, trapping me not wanting me to let go. I need to take a bath, do the dishes and laundry. But i can’t get up. They won’t let me. What really surprised me about my new friend was how angry she makes me. It almost feels like she cut my fuse as short as she could and randomly lights it for fun. I think she enjoys my anger everytime because it makes me more like her. When I’m angry, she’s able to feel closer to me. This past 2 days i ignored her.
But I couldn’t ignore her any longer. I had to accept her, no matter how mad, or embarassed or broken accepting her presence made me feel good. She was there, and she was visible, and she was real. She was there for me, and she never leaves me.

"𝙎𝙩𝙪𝙥𝙞𝙙!"

"𝙋𝙞𝙚𝙘𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙝!"

"𝙃𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙙!"

rina and my new friend keep shouting on me. They are taking over me. I'm a mess a noise is coming near me. It's getting closer the noise was getting loud and loud until it jump on me. I'm struggling. I breathed heavily sweating again i look at the time it was 3 in the morning it was my dream again. I make my way to my bathroom and faced the mirror fresh cuts and bruises.

"𝙒𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙞 𝙗𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙚?" 

"𝙄'𝙢 𝙖 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙡 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙚."

i talked to myself.

I saw my new friend and smiled to me. I’ve accepted this new friend but isn’t going anywhere either. She’s here to stay maybe forever. I have to find her weaknesses. But she’s so new I’m sure it will take a long time and it's too hard. As i lay on my bed and took another sleeping pills.

Walking to our school hallway i felt dizzy  my head was running in circles now that my new friend is on my back clinging she is really heavy to be honest.

I was talking with rina she is scolding again it's normal. I got annoyed.

"𝙎𝙝𝙪𝙩 𝙪𝙥!"
I shouted as the students in the hallway startled looking at me with a confused face and starts whispering. It's obvious what they were talking about. I don't care about them and went to our classroom.
I'm now seating beside rina i was sweating it's so hot in here.

"𝙄𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙘𝙤𝙣 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣?" I ask rina

"𝙉𝙤." She replied.

"𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙮 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙨𝙤 𝙝𝙤𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚? 𝙞'𝙢 𝙨𝙬𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜!" as i bring out my small fan.
My desk was messy and spent a lot of time sleeping only not wanting to listen to our proffesor. I'm starting to imagining things.

"𝙆𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜"

"𝙎𝙪𝙞𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚"

"𝘿𝙧𝙤𝙬𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜"

i smiled at my self.