Joker x reader

Part 15) A Simple Test

It had been a few weeks since I had made my little show in the streets, telling everyone that I had kidnapped myself.

In fact I was going to make a big spectacle, and lure Batman out with a big show, and kill him in front of the whole city. But I couldn't do that anymore.

Sitting on the bathroom floor currently throwing up any breakfast I had told me enough. I already knew what was going on, but I had to make sure.

"J?" I called into the apartment, and soon he popped his head around the corner. "I'll be back. I'm just heading to the Narrows to make sure everything is perfect for tonight."

"I can send some of my men."

"Awe come on you know I'd rather do it myself." I smirked.

He walked towards me, his face paint long since washed away, and hair still slightly damp. "Don't be too long long." He whispered into my hair as we cling to eachother in a tight embrace.

"Never have been." I smirked and pecked his lips before putting on my Fallen Angel attire and leaving.

I took a deep breath as I sat in the small car parked out front. It was nothing special but it blended in nicely. My breaths were shaky.

I knew that if what I thought was true I couldn't go back. He wouldn't want me if I was pregnant. The last thing a crime prince needs is a baby. No matter how much love he had for me. He wouldn't be able to look past a child.

I drove into town, seeing a random street kid in an ally and quilt whipped up what looked like a normal list of grocery's and other necessity's.

"Hey kid." I ushered her over to the car, and she looked weary, so I stepped out. "I'll give a ten grand if ya go into the store and get my groceries."

She looked suspiciously at me for a moment. "You're fallen angel aren't you? Can't you just rob the place?" She asked and I chuckled.

"I could, but I don't really wanna cause a scene today. If you keep this between us I'll toss in an extra thousand."

She smirked and took the thirty bucks, and list I had in my hand and went into the small store. Coming out relatively soon with two grocery bags.

I reached into the back, counting out fifteen thousand. Sure it was significantly more than what I said but what street kid didn't need that much money?

"Thanks kid." I smiled and drove off.

I went to David's Diner. A small gas station and diner run my a drug trafficker working for Joker. I knew he'd at least feed me and not call the cops.

"Aye look who's back!" He cheered as I walked in. "Oi, take that thing off. Only the best dinner in the world for our crime princess Ms. Wayne." He wrapped an arm around my shoulder and led me to one of the back tables.

"Just a burger with some Coke David. I can't be drinking tonight, I've got a big show with Batman tonight." I winked as he made his way back to the kitchen. I took that opportunity to go into the bathroom, quickly take out a pregnancy test, take it, and shove it back in my pocket before he came out with food.

"Thanks David, I owe ya one." I smiled as I began to eat.

"Oh, don't mention it. Joker and I go way back. It's nice to help the woman he loves." That made my heart sink. He did love me. And I was thinking of leaving him, and for what? I didn't even know how he would react.

He stood and went to go yell at his nephew back in the kitchen after a while so I took the opportunity to quickly check my pocket, the small strip showing two lines. I was right, I was pregnant.

I sighed and shoved it back in my pocket just as David came back out. "How are you handling it?" He asked in a calm tone.

"Handling what?"

"I'm not stupid y/n. I knew you were pregnant the moment you walked in here." He smiled softly. "It's true when they say that pregnant woman glow. Ya just gotta have the right eyes to see it."

With that I began to sob, crying into my hands uncontrollably. "God what am I gonna do? There's no way Jack will want a kid!"

He seemed baffled. "Now what have ya that idea?"

I wiped my eyes and looked back up. "He's the most notorious villain in the city! He doesn't need a kid holding him back." I couldn't help but cry, maybe it was the hormones of being pregnant, but I really had no idea what to do.

"It's really not my place to say kid." He rubbed the back of his neck. "But has he ever told you the real reason behind his scars?"

My breathing began to slow and I shook my head. "Something about his girlfriend, I don't really remember it was a while ago and we didn't exactly know each other yet. It was the first time we ever actually saw each other." I sighed with shaky breaths.

"Ask him. They'll change your mind about leavin. And if it don't, ya can come back here and I'll have my nephew drive ya outta town."

"Thanks David." I smiled lightly.

"Don't mention it kid. But ya gotta tell em no matter what. He's a good man. He deserves to know if the woman he loves is havin his baby, villain or not."

I nodded, I knew he was right, but even still I didn't know if I could say it to his face. If for whatever reason I really did decide to leave I'd have to write him a note.

And that's what I did when I got back in the car.

Dear Jack,

I don't exactly know how to tell you this. But I left for a reason. I don't know if or when I'll ever see you again. I don't know why I wasn't more careful, but at the same time we both should have been.

I don't want to leave you, in fact everything in my gut is telling me to stay, but I don't want to be the reason you're held back.

I'm sorry I couldn't get Batman for you, I'm sorry I fell so deeply in love with you that I had to leave. But it needs to be done.

I'm sorry my love, but I'm pregnant. And that's why I had to leave. You don't need a child holding you back.

I'll love you forever and always
~y/n