Based on a true story...June 7,2019.. Yea that's the day I lost my virginity. I remember that day like it was yesterday. For most girls losing their women hood is the best day of their lives, but for me it was the worst day of my life. Let take yall back.
I was 21 years old at the time, and I had met this boy off of this app. His name was kevin never know his last name. We were talking for only week. I knew I should have gotta to know him a little better before it happen. So that day it happen it was so weird I was so nervous for some reason but usually I'm never nervous around boys. But this time I had huge butterflies in my stomach.
So I took a Uber to his house which was in harlem. The whole time I was just shaking and debating if I should dub him and go to my best friend house or go to se him. Of course my dumbass went to his house. When I got to my destination. I walked to the building number he gave me. I knew I was in the hood when I smelt piss outside the building. "The ghetto" I said to myself. I text him "Im here". I waited five minutes for him which felt like forever. He finally came downstairs. When I saw him I said " Wtf this nigga ugly as hell what did I get myself into" I sign to myself. I gave him a small hug and walked up the stairs to his house. When I walked in I looked around the front entrance "not so bad" I said to myself. But then I walked in his room that shit was a fucking mess it was clothes everywhere bed wasn't made it had a weird smell to it. I was so disgusted.
I sat in the computer chair just looking around the room like an ass. Then he said come here and give me a hug. I slowly walked to him,and gave him a hug his hands fell to my hands to my ass.My eyes wide but I just went along with it. Then he kissed me. I said this nigga moving too fast for me. But I just went with the flow. My nervous got the best of me I was trying to feel this nigga out but he was moving to fast. But I guess he never been with a girl neither. Ion know. So I sit on the edge of his bed and just look around the room again like an ass. He looks at me and says "Get comfortable take your shoes off sit your bag down". I slowly took my shoes off and sat my bag on the table that was next to me. I lay down in his bed and he lays next to me. He puts his arm around me and we lay in silence. "You shy" he says looking at me. I just nod my head.
The next thing I know this boy got his tongue in my mouth. He breaks the kiss and whips out his dick. I looked at him then back at his penis that shit was small as hell. He said "Suck it". I hesitated for a minute. Then I opened my mouth started sucking his dick. Now mind you I have to idea what I'm doing I'm just sucking him with my teeth. Then he gets up off the bed and sits on the chair then he says "get on your knees. I continue to suck his dick for a good five minutes. The next thing I know I feel a warm liquid in my mouth. "Did this nigga just nut in my mouth". And not knowing what to do I swallow it and spit on the floor. He looked at my with me a crazy look "Why you do that for? I sat their in silence. He pick me up and sat on the bed.He kisses me and I kiss back. Then his hands travel up my dress to my underwear. Thank god I shave the other day, but I was not planning on losing my shit to this nigga. But I said now its now or never. he kisses my on neck down to my boobs then down to my pussy. Now let me say this HE CAN NOT EAT PUSSY FOR SHIT HE IS HORRIBLE. Then he grabs a condom. I say "what he hell is about to do with that". he looks at me and starts to push inside of me not giving no warning. OWWW I screamed out. He just kept going. In my head I'm saying " Get tf off of me" but I was shocked I couldn't gather my words, I was so in shocked I couldn't do anything but lay their. We switch position a few times and he kept trying to stick his penis in me. In one of the position he told me to finger pop myself I said wtf is that I never even seen that before or even heard of it. After like the fifth time he tried the condom had blood on it. I knew then he popped my shit. I looked down at the blood on the condom. He looks at me and says "You bleeding". I wanted to say "No shit you just took my virginity you dumbass". I just look at him and shake my head. I slip my panties back on. I sat on the edge of his bed and he sits in the chair. He says to me rate it. I looked at him "what I'm supposed the rate?" "The sex" He says. Since when we rate sex. "Umm 1" I said back to him. He laughs " A one, ight I take that". I laugh to myself "what the hell this nigga wanted me to say a 10". He thought. Then he says "you gotta I got something I have to do". I look at him this boy is going to kicked me out after he took my shit. I sigh.
We walked to the door I gave him a hug and walked downstairs and out the building. I looked at the busy street. I just started walking I wasn't going anywhere I just kept walking. I felt my leg wet I touch it and it was bleed on my hand. I panicked it. I saw a CVS up ahead I walked in went to the pads section grabbed some pads. I paid for my stuff and open the packages. I walked into a block where nobody was and I put a pad on. I know it was nasty but I had to do something. I walked to my bestfriend house and saw that she wasn't home. So the next house I had to go was my grandma house. I knew if I went their she was going to see the blood all over my dress and my shoes. I sigh to myself I had no choose at this point.At this point I'm bleeding the street and people asking me if I'm alright and I'm saying yes I'm ok. I just kept walking until I got to my grandma house. I saw my grandpa outside. I said "hey grandpa would you mind taking me home". he said "yea right now". I said "yea why not". he says "your grandma upstairs". I said shit, now why he say that. Now I have to walked upstairs for her to see me like this oh fuckkk. I couldn't say no. So I walked upstairs thinking of a lie to tell my grandma when she sees the blood. I ring the door bell. "Who is it?" she says through the door. "It's me grandma". I say in a low tone. She opens the door "hey baby" she greets me with a hug and kiss. She sit back in her chair. She says what you doing here. "oh nothing I just went to the movies with my friend that's all". She says looking at me up and down. "What's that on the back of your skirt". She says trying to look behind me. I say "Oh it's nothing I must had sat in something". She frowns "Let me see". She says getting up out of her chair . "It's nothing I sat in something". I say backing away from her. "That looks like blood to me" She's says looking at me. " I think its my period". I lie. "Your period bleeding like that". she says to me. "Yea it must be a heavy flow this month". I said. "well come on I got few pads back here". I sigh to myself thank god she brought that. I got myself together, and said bye to my grandma. I got in the car and went home. I said bye to my grandpa. I walked in my house got in the shower and through my clothes in the trash. I crawled up in bed and went to sleep.
Everyday of my life I regret that day. I wish I could take my virginity back, and do it with someone who actually loves me and treats me like the queen I am. just like they say "Once it's gone theirs no going back".....
Moral of the story is have sex with somebody that you love and respects you. Don't lay down with anybody that doesn't take their time with you. Know your worth.
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