The Start of Something New

Chapter 28 - The perfect-moment-kiss thing

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Zayn's P.O.V.

When I arrived at my flat I quickly switched the TV on. I zapped through the channels but since I couldn't find anything interesting I switched it back off. I sat on the sofa and stared at the ceiling thinking about this evening. When I thought about Li, when she smiled at me, my lips formed a smile, too. It was the first time since our fight that she smiled at me like this. I thought about Sophie and Niall's glance when Harry and Louis started a food-fight. Simply hilarious! Everything, even the kitchen, even though there was a separated dinning room, was messy. Liam didn't find that funny, either. But finally, they tidied the whole thing and we were all fine again. It was truly a great evening. Still thinking about it, I switched the TV back on. I decided to watch some How I Met Your Mother by I went to bed. I got out of my clothing and threw them on the floor. Then, I went to the bathroom and took a quick shower. It has only been 5 minutes. I put some clothing on, because I did not prefer to sleep naked. Actually I wasn't tired. But I closed my eyes. I tried so hard to dream about Li. Sure, I could watch a picture of her, I mean I just had to google her name. But I tried to imagine her in a rose dress. That was her favourite colour. A rose dress made of silk and tulle. I tried to make her a light grey make-up. She always preferred to wear a light make-up. I gave her some curls and I made her eyes shine bright like a little lake in the hills which was full of clear water and no fishes. The water was so clear that she could reflect herself in the water. I imagined her sitting there at such a like. She played with her fingers in the water and wrote something in the water. Now, I dreamed. I didn't slept. But I dreamed. The grass was very green there. There was a little bungalow with some flowers in its garden. Around the bungalow was a little fence. In front of the fence was a bench which was also decorated with flowers. Everything here was decorated with flowers. I decided to take a flower and to put it in Li's hair. It was a little red flower which fitted perfect with her rose dress. When I put the flower in her hair she started giggling. Then she turned her head and .. - I saw the ceiling. What? WHAT? THE CEILING? No no no no no! I was about to fall in sleep but nothing. I just opened my eyes. I knew I had no chance to imagine the pic again. I took a look at my phone. Nothing. I thought about today again. I yawned. No, don't fall asleep Zayn! Stay awake! You have to.. you have.. to.. - Wait! I had to read the letter! Li! She gave me a letter under the desk. I quickly stood up and searched for my jeans. I put the letter in my pocket. Were was my jeans? I went to the bathroom and .. - JACKPOT! The letter! While I went to my bed I opened the letter. I turned the lights on and started reading:

Zayn, I have to tell you something. I am so so so sorry for everything I did. I didnt wanted to do it. But he helped me to get stronger and to dont cry everytime. I dont love him - I ONLY LOVE YOU ! I dont know whether he loves me. What he did .. it was just like a stay strong! I'm sooo afraid of loosing you.. not because you are the super famous Zayn but because you are my super famous Zayn. I always loved you and I'll never stop doing so. Since I'm a Directioner I love you. And now when you are mine I cant imagine my life.. no - our life without you anymore.. I mean.. you are my favourite and you are the most important part in my life (after my mommy and Phie).

ZANY PLEASE NEVER EVER FORGET THIS!

I love you and I will never stop loving you.

Sincerely, Li. xx

ps. Louandmekissed.

Silence. I laid the letter next to my bed and turned the lights off. Wow. I was just speechless. I took my phone and went online in Twitter.

zaynmalik1d (@zaynmalik) tweeted just now:

Laying in the bed and watching the ceiling for hours and it still wont move.. aha :) x