Ivy Tomlinson thinks her brother Louis is dead after him and his gang vanished.
After traveling to America she gets word of a series of robberies that all link to The Venoms, Louis' gang.
Will she be spotted? Will she find her brother? Or will she g...
I did not even bother to take the elevator as I stomped my way up the three flights of stairs, trying to blow off my steam.
Entering my room I make a b-line for the bathroom, wanting to wash this night off of me and just go to sleep.
I look at myself in the mirror and I'm a mess. Mascara is smeared all over my under-eyes, my hair is messy, and to top it all off I have a nasty hand mark displayed on my face.
"Fucking asshole." I muttered under my breath as I got undressed.
I allowed the steam surround me to try and calm my thoughts, but all I think about is what Harry said.
'This is why Louis fucking left you'
'This is why Louis fucking left you'
'This is why Louis fucking left you'
I couldn't help but fall down in the tub, letting the water run over my back as I brought my knees to my chest and cried.
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Maybe Harry was right, maybe Louis doesn't want to see me, maybe he actually left me just like everyone else.
My mom never understood me when I tried tell her about this feeling of loneliness.
To her, loneliness is such an easy thing to fix: find a friend, or reach out to someone who cares. But it's not that easy.
There are nights it takes a hold of me. All I can do in those long black hours is find an enclosed place to shake until the tears subside and I can focus on the light of dawn, breathe, and drink water. Which is what I should be doing now.
It isn't simply a lack of company, even though that's part of it for sure, it's mostly a black hole. It threatens to swallow every part of me, good and bad, until all that's left is an exhausted Ivy, too numb to feel the pain anymore.
I try to focus on my breathing, but Harry's words just kept repeating over and over in my head.
Feeling the once warm water turn icy cold, I've realized I have been in the shower way too long. I get up and turn the water off as I step out onto the cold bathroom floor.
I walked to my suitcase trying to find the comfiest pajamas I have.
Settling on a big sweatshirt not bothering putting anything else on, I climb into the bed, falling asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.
...
I was running.
I kept running towards the light. If I let the darkness consume me I'll be alone.
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I can't be alone. Not until I find Louis, not until I know he's alive.
I opened my eyes and threw the covers off of myself, trying to cool down from my nightmare. I picked up my phone, squinting at the brightness as I see it's two a.m.
"Shit." I groan opening my phone up.
Scrolling through my phone, I got bored and move to my contacts, hovering my thumb over Louis' contact.
I impulsively clicked on it, bringing it to my ear waiting for the voicemail so I could leave a message like I always do.
But someone answered the call.
My heart race picked up yet everything felt like it was moving slowly. "L-Louis?" I said shakily, tears forming in my eyes.
"Louis if you are there p-please," needing to take a breather I paused before I continued "please say something." I said choking on my tears.
All I heard was breathing.
"Louis I can fucking hear you breathing, I-I know y-you're there just please."
"If I know you're safe I'll stop looking, if I know you're safe I won't bother you okay?"
No answer.
"Okay?"
Breathing.
"C-can you please just say something? I'm so tired of all of this."
Wiping my tears away, I take a deep breath.
"Y-you know, mom always said you and dad leaving was always my fault, f-funny right."
Still just breathing on the other line.
"T-that's why I started looking for you, I j-just I just need to prove to her that it's not my fault."
"It's not, right?"
Still just breathing
"God, this is so pathetic" I said sighing while wiping my tears away.
"I'm not wasting my life looking for you anymore. I'm done!" I cut myself off as I hung up the phone.
