Oof, sorry I haven't post anything in a while, I was busy.... well anyways enjoy! Word count 1512 words
⚠️Trigger warnings⚠️
⚠️depressedinnit⚠️
⚠️intrusive thoughts⚠️
⚠️negative thoughts⚠️
⚠️self harm⚠️
⚠️anorexia I guess??⚠️[Tommy's dream]
"Who are you?! What do you want from me?!" I started running into the dark forest away from this big dark thing chasing me...but its no use its right behind me..
"No one likes you."
"Just die already"
"They're just pitying you, they're not your friends"
"Don't you want to jump off the Cadillac and into a volcano, Tommy?"
"Cut yourself Tommy"
"Hang your head on a noose"
"You're so fat! Loose some weight!"
"Let go already Tommy"
"Pfft what a crybaby!"[Tommy's dream end]
(Tommy's pov)
I woke up sweating and gasping for air while silently sobbing........what time is it?
Hmm its still 3am...maybe I should..... I got up from bed and took my pillow from my bed and started shaking it, 'I know I hid that blade in here somewhere' I thought to myself.. I eventually found the blade and pulled up my sleeves...no, I shouldn't, I promised Dream that I would stop.....but he's not here anyways, and a little bit wouldn't hurt anyone, right? Well, there's already some cuts already from weeks, and even months ago..might as well add a little bit more."They hate you"
one cut
"They're only pitying you, they actually find you annoying"
another cut
"You're so fat! Ew!"
another cut
" Tubbo never wanted to be your friend"
another cut
"Die already!"
another cut
"You're a failure"
another cut
"Tsk, such a burden"
another cut....I've been cutting for a while now, both my wrists have around 35 cuts each some are really deep 'til I stopped...I went down to the beach and washed my bloody arms in the salty water, it stung for a moment but I didn't care at all. I went back to tnret and grabbed some bandages to bandage my arms after that I rolled my sleeves back down so they don't notice it.....ack....my stomach started hurting to the point where I couldn't stand anymore 'I haven't ate anything in 3 weeks now, maybe I should eat something..No I'm too fat to eat anything' I thought to myself again...I'll go drink some water instead and maybe try to go back to bed...
Few hours later I woke up feeling really tired.....I'll just go back to bed, its not like I have anything better to do today.
Oh wait, Dream's coming over today. I'll just put my armor and weapons in a hole and put a sign out so he wouldn't bother me.[Dream's pov]
I have to visit Tommy today. I hope he didn't break the promise (the promise that Tommy promised is that he would stop cutting for good, if your wondering) and I haven't visited him in a week now. I really need to see him, who knows he might even be dead when I get there.. I took the things I needed and head off to my boat..........
Once I got there I didn't see anyone, not even Tommy. "Tommy? Where are you?" I called out to him while looking around, until I saw him peacefully sleeping in his tent. 'Huh what's this sign about?' I thought to myself while reading it, I'll let him keep his stuff for now. I went into the hole and grabbed his stuff and started walked to his chest room to put his stuff into a chest.. now I need to check on Tommy. I walked off to his tent and tried to wake him up gently, "Tommy, hey Tommy wake up." I said while gently shaking the boy...... wait why does his arm feel really warm? I placed my hand on his forehead, I should have suspected it, he's got a fever. I went down to the beach and grabbed a cloth from my bag and soaked it in, I later returned to Tommy who is now awake, "Dream? Is that you?", "yes Tommy, now go back to bed, you have a fever." , "ok" I then placed the soaked cloth on his forehead, he flinched a little since it was cold. I left shortly after to go and grab some ingredients to make some soup for him, but I need someone to look after him while I go and grab the ingredients. "Hey Sam!", " Oh, hello Dream! What's up?", "Well..Tommy's sick right now and I need you to look after him while I go grab some ingredients to make him some soup." , "Sure." With that being covered up, I then went off to grab some ingredients I need..some mushrooms since I'm gonna make some mushroom stew....
It's been a couple hours and I have gotten a lot of mushrooms for the mushroom stew. Now I just need to get back Tommy's place.[Awesamdude's pov]
After the little conversation with Dream I went off to take care of Tommy.
I finally made it to Tommy's tent but....where's Tommy? Wait, what is Tommy doing by the beach?
I rushed over to Tommy as quick as possible, "Tommy? Why are you out of bed?" I asked. "I didn't feel like staying in bed." He replied, I then proceeded to touch his forehead, huh Dream was right he is sick. "What are you doing?" Tommy asked, "well, Dream told me that you were sick to I wanted to check." , "Oh." "C'mon Tommy you need to rest now." , "Ok then...if you say so." We then went back to tnret and I went back to the beach and soaked the cloth again and went back to Tommy..only to see something that I couldn't ever imagine...... "TOMMY?! ARE YOU OKAY?! WHAT'S WRONG!?" I said while running up to the boy whose laying on his stomach on the floor whilst coughing up lots of blood. "Its nothing Sam, I'm alright..", "No your not okay Tommy, here let me help you." I then helped the boy back to bed and cleaned up the blood that was on the floor, after all that I placed the soaked cloth onto the knocked out boy's head and pulled up his blanket. I then went outside and just waited for Dream to be back.[Dream's pov]
I finally made it back to to the camp and saw Sam waiting for me. "Oh hey Sam! So how's Tommy?" I asked. "Dream...there's something wrong with Tommy.." , "Why? What's wrong?" , "Awhile ago Tommy was throwing up blood and I don't know what's wrong, and when I got here I noticed how pale he looked." , "Wait what!? Is he okay now?" , " Well yeah, he's asleep right now.." , "Alright then, we'll ask him some questions when he wakes up." He nodded and I then crafted some bowls and started to make the soup.. I placed some medicine in Tommy's soup and asked Sam if he could wake Tommy up. Tommy and Sam then walked out of the tent and we all sat down at Tommy's little beach place and ate some soup...but Tommy didn't touch his food.. "Tommy what's up?", "Huh? Oh n-nothing Dream.." , "Hey Tommy?", "Yeah?" , "When was the last time you ate?"
(Tommy's pov)
"When was the last time you ate?" Dream asked and my heart dropped....."Uhhh, y-yesterday" I lied. "Tommy don't lie to me." Dream said.....shit what am I gonna do now? "Tommy you can tell us anything, you know that right?" Sam chimed in. "Ok ok! I ate 3 weeks ago!" I replied while looking down and starting to sob, I can't see their expressions but I can tell that their shocked "I know, I'm a burden to you guys." I muttered but I'm pretty sure that they heard me. I then felt arms around me as I continued to sob " There there Tommy, its okay." Dream said while patting my hair "You're not a burden Tommy." I heard Sam say it while I hugged them back and continued to cry even more into their arms......... after a while of crying I told them everything that I did for the past 3 weeks and I even told them what I did this morning. "Tommy, I know it's hard right now but you need to continue looking up alright?" Dream said to me while I gave a sad smile, tears falling off my cheeks. "Tommy, can you try to drink at least 3 spoons of the soup, for us?" Sam asked while I nodded....I was a bit hesitant but drank the soup anyways, I even finished the whole bowl. I can tell that both Sam and Dream were really happy to see me finish the soup, I wanted the throw up everything by force but something tells me not to... I then went off to bed and said goodbye to Sam, but Dream just decided that he would stay for the night since I was sick..... "good night Big D." , "Night Tommy." And with that I went off to bed...
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