it's not you, it's me.

thoughts & regrets

Jessica's POV
I arrived home very exhausted. I plopped my self in the couch and just stared at the ceiling. I sighed and closed my eyes trying to forget the things that has been flying through my mind. Everything was interrupted by a call on my phone, and again, its Hanah.
Jessica: Hello?
Hannah: Jess, So before i say this to you, just a heads up, don't get mad at me.
Jessica: Just get to the point Hannah.
Hannah: So ahh, the ahh, the manager wants you here tomorrow for a photoshoot.
Jessica: Why can't i just have a break for once?!
Hannah: Im really sorry jess but make sure to be here Tomorrow, I'll treat you lunch, Bye!
Jessica: But, Wait I-
Hannah ended the call and i sighed (again) in frustration. I work as a famous model in a very famous company. Its just a sudden that i had a break. But when i have some spare time, i usually read books or even do some photography. So i decided to pack my things to get ready to the airport.
50 minutes later...
After i finished packing my things i wore my glasses and mask and already called an uber to take me to the airport. When i have arrived at the airport there was a huge crowd in the entrance, i came closer to see 7 guys being Crowded by many paparazzi and fan girls. I decided to take the other entrance of the airport because i can barely get through the crowd. Once i got in the airport, i waited for my flight of course. But, Somethings really familiar with the guys that i saw earlier. My thoughts were interrupted by the announcement of the airport.
"This is the final boarding call for passengers booked on flight 3182B Cebu Pacific airlines to Palawan. Please proceed to gate 3 immediately. Thank You."
After that announcement i decided to board on the plane that i was supposed to be in before I'll be late.
45 minutes later, after the flight...
I Have Arrived at the airport already, and what do i expect, paparazzi surrounding me taking pictures and all those sh**. I saw Hannah approching, so i walked up to her and entered her car. After i fixed my self a bit, i drank some water that Hannah had on her car.
"Welcome back Jess"
Hannah greeted me while she's driving.
"What do i even expect to that manager of mine to say you know, like this is the only time i had break." I said.
"Calm down Jess, I heard that's photoshoot is big." She replied.
"You always say that." I retorted.
"Im serious here Jess if you cancel this photoshoot I'll legit kill you.
"She semi-shouted at me
"Whatever." I rolled my eyes at her. Looking out the window, seeing many billboards of there group. It's just so amazing on how successful they are today. I haven't actually seen them, i mean there like really famous so its Impossible for us to see them so easily. "Thinking of him? " Hannah suddenly speaks up.
"N-no im not." i replied to her trying to avoid the conversation that she's trying to make up.
"Jess, don't lie to me, i mean its ok that you miss him. What if one day you both randomly meet again. Like there's nothing wrong with that." She said to me.
"I know that, but what if his still mad at me?"
i questioned her while looking at my hands. Hannah stayed silent and sighed. "Don't be mad at me, But i bet he would still be mad, You really hurted him, even though it was for your own sake. You could have atleast explained to him what REALLY happened."
I bite my bottom lip, and just stayed silent to what Hannah told me. I shouldn't have done such a stupid decision.

author: So Hi guys, for this chapter and next chapter will mostly be flashbacks so, just reminding you guys hehe😃