it's not you, it's me.

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Justin's POV 
I can't believe that i met Jessica again. My heart clenched with the old memories. Justin: So, How are you these days?
I asked her. 
Jessica: Fine i guess, You, how are you, You're very famous these days, You already attained your dream already.
She said.
By the sound of her voice, she seems to be in pain. 
Justin: Yeah, How's you and your boyfriend.
I asked her hesitantly. 
Jessica: Who?
She asked 
Justin: The guy that night, you know. 
Jessica: That.. uhmm... We we're never dating actually. 
Justin: I just want to clarify, something, Don't think that i hate you. We can still be friends you know. 
Jessica: Yeah....
she said it while she was looking at her hand.
Justin: Are you ok, it looks like somethings Bothering You? 
Jessica: Uh W-what, Pshh, No I'm just really stressed.
She said and sighed.. 
Justin: Want to go for walk?, you know to atleast get some fresh air. 
She nodded and we exited the Café.  There was a very weird atmosphere while we're walking. None of us dared to speak. To be honest, I don't why my heart is still beating after the thing she did to me. 
Justin: So, what have you been doing these days? 
Jessica: I've been doing modeling, Which gives me right money to feed myself. Justin: Why can't your parents pay for that?, i mean you guys don't have a very big company.  She chuckled. 
Jessica: It's a long story, I don't even want to talk about the thing they made me to do just to help there company.
Curiosity took over me and I can't help just ask her. 
Justin: You can tell me anything. 
She turned her head to me and gave me a faint smile. 
Jessica: Let's go have a sit first. 
We seated in a near bench and she started. 
Jessica: They forced me to marry a guy, For the companies sake. I agreed because i don't want to disappoint them. But the guy, he persuaded his family for her girlfriend. With that, My parents got mad at me since i didn't stop him. They let me lived alone, with no savings. I stayed at Hannah's house, I started to find different kind of jobs. Then i found out modelling thanks to Hannah. They never called or texted me after that. 
She looked at me and smiled in pain. 
Justin: When did that happen?
Jessica: When we're still dating. 
I noticed her tears rolling down her cheeks. 
Jessica: But you broke up with me because you saw me with the guy. I wanted to atleast say it was a pure accident. But i get your reaction. 
She said in a sad tone. I realized everything. I didn't let her explain that night that's why. 
Justin: I-im sorry 
Jessica: It's nothing, maybe that was just the end. 
She said smiling but she putted her hands to her face and started crying.  I hugged her, It's all my fault, why she's suffering. 
Jessica: I was so stupid to do that, I even hurted you. Now the consequence is that i suffered my whole life. 
She said in between her sobs.
Justin: Why didn't you tell me back then?  I said controlling my emotions. 
Jessica: I was scared. But it doesn't matter now since- 
Justin: It does matter, If you told me i could have helped you.... We could have been still together. 
She looked up to me and chuckled 
Jessica: We still wouldn't have lasted long, Cause your an famous artist. 
Justin: If you just knew how i really felt in those eight years without you. 
She looked me confused waiting me to continue. 
Justin: heartaches, migraines, sadness, closed eyes, tears falling. Its been through a lot of unstable emotions that time, mood shifts anxiety & even reached depression, You're the only one who can make me feel loved and comforted. I miss you, the pain I thought you gave me. It was just because of my stupidity. I tried to forget you but i just can't, Your just too special to be forgotten easily. I still love you.