My Kind of Doctor

Part Ten

****Sorry this probably isn't a very exciting part, but I'm just trying to keep it going. It does get more interesting in a bit.****

I didn’t want to go to class on Monday. All I could think about was Dr. Kennedy seeing Amber and I kiss. How was I supposed to be in a rather small office with her alone after class when she knew I was into girls? How was I supposed sit in my desk which was in the front of the class room… right by where she always stood?

            I considered the option of skipping several times before the clock hit eleven. All I had to do was not go, but then… the meeting. I’d have to go to that and besides, it’s not like I could simply skip going to class for the rest of the semester. After I carefully weighed the pros and cons of skipping I ran into Lani. Looks like I was going to class.

            “Hey Kendall,” she said in her typical quiet voice as she walked up to me. “Ready for history?”

            No. No I wasn’t ready at all. Actually, I had just been thinking about leaving.

            “Uh… I guess.”

            “I’m not. I heard we’re getting our first homework assignment today.”

            “Oh what fun,” I said sarcastically.

            We walked into class together and I sat in my seat, waiting anxiously for Dr. Kennedy to enter the room and dreading the second that she did. I decided in the end that I was going to put my head down and just not look. Lots of people did that in their classes all the time.

            A few minutes later I could hear a pair of heels clicking down the hallway faintly. The longer I listened the closer they got. Closer and closer. Closer and closer until eventually they stopped. It was awkwardly quiet for a moment.

            “Is she okay?” Dr. Kennedy asked. I lifted my head to see her staring at me, her head tilted a little to the side. She smiled when are eyes met and I fought as hard as I could not to smile back. “They there.”

            “Hi… I’m fine,” I told her.

            “Just making sure.”

            She smiled again and walked to the front of the class to start her lecture. Meanwhile, I couldn’t help but notice how good she looked in her short skirt and knee high boots. I realized I was staring a few seconds later and I could practically feel my whole face turn bright red as I looked up and noticed that she happened to be looking right at me. Great. She probably just caught me checking her out.

            I pulled my notebook out of my bag which was sitting at my feet and started to doodle in it. I had a bunch of hearts and flowers midway through the class. They weren’t too bad either. I just needed to learn how to make more realistic flow….

            *tap tap*

            Dr. Kennedy was standing right next to my table when I looked up. She gestured for me to close my notebook before walking away and continuing with whatever she was talking about so I did. Now I was forced to look at her again though and I didn’t really want to do that.

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            For the remainder of the hour I made it look like I was paying attention, but let my mind wander elsewhere. Dr. Kennedy didn’t seem to notice, which was lucky, because she normally liked to call on me for random things.

            “Ready for our meeting?” she asked as the other students were leaving. I nodded. “Great. Follow me then.”

            I followed her all the way to her office and sat down as she quietly shut the door.

            “Sorry for doodling in class.”

            She smiled as she walked over and sat down.

            “It’s alright. Happens all the time actually, but… anyway I’d like to help you out. Maybe to start out you can tell me how you’re doing in your other classes.”

            I thought for a moment. My heart was racing. At least she seemed to be ignoring the fact that she saw me kiss a girl. Although, I supposed it would have been unprofessional for her to bring it up.

            “I’m doing alright.”

            “Just alright?”

            “Yeah.”

            She sighed.

            “How have your grades been in previous years?”

            I sighed, a little relieved. It seemed as though by getting to know me she only wanted to know my academic history. Maybe this wasn’t going to be so bad talking to her.

            “They haven’t been that great actually. School isn’t really my thing.”

            “Why’s that?”

            I still hated that she asked so many questions.

            “I don’t know. I just never do too well I guess.”

            “Well how about we change that?”

            I’ve tried to change that before. It never really worked out the way I wanted it too.

            “Yeah… that’d be nice,” I answered unenthusiastically.

            I hadn’t really being paying much attention since she rolled her chair over to where I could now get a very nice view of her long legs. What made it worse was when she would cross and uncross her legs. Her skirt was up higher because she was sitting down, almost giving me more of a very than I needed to see every time. Not that… I would have minded.  

            No! There I went again with the dirty thoughts.

            “Kendall… Kendall?”

            I snapped out of my little fantasy world and looked back up at her face.

            “I’m sorry. I’m… tired.”

            “Are you alright? You seem a little out of it today.”

            “I’m fine. Really.”

            There was not a look of concern on her face as she stared me down.

            “Okay, but you know… If you need to talk about anything, it’s okay with me. You know, you remind me a lot of a younger me sometimes. I know what you’re capable of.” I had been sitting with my hands folded on her desk and she moved over to lean on the other side, placing one of her hands on mine. I instantly froze up. “I know that you’re very intelligent and you can do well.”

            I didn’t say anything else. Instead I instinctively pulled my hands away and sat back in the chair. Dr. Kennedy leaned back, a little surprised.

            “I have to go,” I said. “I have to… meet someone for something.”

            “Kendall… I’m sorr…”

            “It’s fine. I’ll see you tomorrow Dr. K.”

            After that I grabbed my bad and walked out the door. I couldn’t believe I had just done that. Now she was really going to be concerned about me.