Regan Oneshots

I'm Sorry Too

Negan approached the gate to the Hilltop, swinging his bat lazily. Despite losing the Saviours, he still had the same cocky attitude as he had when he first came to the Hilltop. He banged on the gate, similar to how he had before, and waited for them to open it. Michonne was the one to do so, much to his surprise. He half expected Rick to open the gate. It had been a while since he'd been here, truth be told, so it was also nice to see her.

"Hey! Michonne! I've missed you!" Negan exclaimed, stepping through the gates. She glared at him as he walked in, looking around. 

"Why are you here?" she demanded, and he looked at her.

"Well, I missed most of you, honestly. And I wanted to pay a visit to Rick!" Negan exclaimed, and Michonne looked at him funnily. 

"You didn't hear?" she questioned, and he chuckled.

"Hear what?" he asked.

"He's dead." she replied. He froze, his heart skipping a beat as his smile dropped. Rick Grimes was dead? She had to be joking. He turned to look at her, raising a brow and managing a nervous chuckle.

"What? Is this some sort of joke?" he inquired, and she shook her head.

"He's been dead for a week, Negan." she replied, and his heart dropped. Rick was gone. 

"Shit... I..." Negan struggled to form words, looking at her. She was quiet, her lower lip quivering. She looked down, avoiding his gaze and wiping her eyes.

"I'm sorry." was the first thing he said. He wanted to hug her, to do something, but he knew she practically hated him. 

"It's fine. It wasn't your fault." she responded quietly.

"I know but I feel like I'm responsible. I was a piece of shit for a lot of the time I knew you guys, I'm sorry." Negan apologized again, and she looked at him.

"It wasn't your fault." she repeated, this time a little louder, and more firm. He was quiet, and she turned to leave.

"I think I loved him." Negan spoke up, and she stopped, looking at him.

"I think we all knew. Except for him." she replied, and Negan's gut twisted. She looked at him for a long time, before going over and hugging him.

"He loved you too." she added softly, and Negan felt his heart in his throat as she held onto him, and he wondered if it was for him or for her. Perhaps it was both. 

"I missed him... I came here because I missed him.." Negan started, but she shook her head.

"I'm sorry Negan." she whispered, and he found it strange that she was being affectionate towards him. But he was grateful for it. 

"I'm sorry too." he muttered, closing his eyes and dropping his head on her shoulder.