A Teenage Girl's Devotional

I Will never leave you or Forsake you

        This is kind of going to be corresponding with the previous chapter. It's about feeling alone. I think we all know what it's like to feel alone. Some more than others. Some of us are even depressed. (I hope not). But some of us are. But we don't have to feel alone at all. God said that when you are a child of God that he is never going to leave you or forsake you. He is never going to let anything bad happen to you. He loves you so much. Even when you are by yourself and you feel like their is no one their. That's when God is there. You can't see him but you have to believe in it and know that he is there.

Psalm 147:3 says "he healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds." That means that when you are sad and feeling lonely. Whenever you feel like your going through something, all you have to do is pray and trust in God and he's going to be there. 

        I can't tell you how many nights I cried. Asking God to take the pain away. Crying over the kids who were mean to me at school. Crying because of the things that were happening at home. Just sad. There were days when I felt like no one was there. Days when I couldn't talk to my friends, because they didn't know what I was going through. But I can say that when I was feeling sad, God was there with me through it all. He never left me. I have complete confidence in God that he never is going to leave me.

        I remember this one time (not too long ago) I was having these constant anxiety attacks. And my parents had left me alone in the house while they went out to go get dinner. As soon as they left about five minutes later I started having another panic attack. I didn't know what to do. All i remember is that I stopped and prayed. And it's like I felt this hand touching me. There was this voice whispering in my ear that told me to calm down and relax and that it was going to be OK. I began to calm down and relax. I kept hearing this voice in my head that kept saying "I'm here with you, don't be scared." The panic attack started to go away. And then it stopped. I just laid down, and thanked God for helping me. I knew it was God telling me that he was there.

        When you have God you have to always remember that HE IS ALWAYS THERE!!! Even when it doesn't seem like it. Even when it seems like he isn't he is. The world will tell you that seeing is believing. But the BIBLE says that believing is seeing. Every time you feel like crying, or you feel sad just remember that God is there with you and that he can take any pain away.

        I've said this before and I'm going to say it again. You need to remind your problems who God is. In Matthew 19:26 it says "But Jesus beheld them, and aid unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." Anything is possible if you have God. If you don't have God then "I can't " might as well be your motto. I have witnessed God perform miracles.         

        An example would be my mom. When I was in the 5th grade my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. She was told so many things. She was told she was going to lose her hair. She was told things about how they didn't know if she was going to live or not. But she's still with me here today. And here's the most amazing part. Through the whole time she had cancer, she did not lose her hair at all!! That was honestly a miracle. The radiation didn't make her lose her hair, because I prayed and asked God to make sure that she didn't. That goes to show that God can do anything.

        For those of you who are going through something right now. I'm here to let you know that "It gets better." This is coming from someone who used to way 183 lbs. in middle school at the height of 5"3". Now i'm 5"5" inches and I weigh 140 lbs. That was God. He gave me the strength to lose over 40 lbs. in one year. That's proof that God can work miracles. I used to be so depressed and sad and so pessimistic. Only God turned that around for me. I didn't do a thing by myself. Only God took those suicidal thoughts out of my mind. He took those negative thoughts out of my mind. And if he did it for me than he'll do it for you too. 

        God loves you so much. He sent his only son to die on the cross for our sins. How many parents do you know would sin there only son to die for everyone? NO ONE!! Because no one is God. He loves you so much. I wish that I could go back and take back all the things I've said that hurt God's feelings. I wish I could apologize for treating him that way. But I can't. All I can do is ask for his forgiveness and move on. 

        All i'm saying is that if there's anything that you guys are going through, that you need to give it to God. If your fleeing away from God, then you need to get right with him. Because there is going to be a day when its too late. And then how will you feel? God can take away any kind of pain that you are feeling. Weather its mental or physical. Nothing is too big or too small for God. Remember that.

Dear Lord thank you for this day, and thank you for everything that you've done. I want to start off by saying that i'm sorry for treating you the way I did in the past. I'm sorry for hurting you the way I did. I love you sooo much, and you don't deserve to be treated that way. Please help me to get through what i'm going through. Please help me to remember that you are always here, and that your never ever going to leave me no matter what happens. I love you. Amen.