Kentrell
After what had happened, I know I had to make things right with Jah for sure even if that means we cant be together.
I was on my way to Jah house. I was in my hellcat. I drove off from my mansion and lit a blunt. I was gonna make things work. I promise. I had to change my ways. I needed my baby back,
Just as I turned onto her block it started raining. I finished smoking and parked the car. I made sure to put my hoodie over my head since it was raining.
I grabbed the flowers out the car and walked over to the door. I braced myself. I knocked on her door.
She came to the door, and was obviously surprised to see me.
"What the fuck you doing here" She asked getting ready to close the door but I put my foot in it.
"Man look Jah hear me out. I know I fucked up. Bae I'm sorry you know how I get when I'm deep in my thoug-" She interrupted.
"You say this everytime Kentrell. Everytime you fuck up you come to my door with some sorry ass excuse. Save it Kentrell" She crossed her arms.
"Jahri listen to me this time. I wanna talk to you. I wanna explain everything that's been on my mind. I wanna show you why I act the way I act. Just let me" I sighed.
"Whatever Kentrell but make it quick" She went to put her slides on and locked up the house.
I opened the passenger door for her and then got in on the other side. I played some music and lit up another blunt. I placed the flowers on her laps and she just kept scrolling on her phone.
It was silent the whole way there.
I pulled up to the beach. It was dark, and lonely. Just how I wanted it to be.
"You got a jacket?" I asked her. She shook her head. I grabbed her a Never Broke Again hoodie and she put it on.
"Kentrell why are we here. It's raining" She said sounding aggravated.
"Mane just listen. We gone go out here and we gon talk like some grown folks" I said getting out the car. I tried to grab her hand and she was hesitant at first. But then I led her to this spot in the sand. We sat down and she sighed..
(Que music please , It makes it better I promise)
"Mane Jah I just want start by saying I love you. I know in the past I fucked up plenty of times. Way too many times. And I understand if you dont want to take me back. But at least let me explain." I took a breath
"When I was younger I didn't have nobody. I faced my problems alone. When some shit was on my mind I dealt with it on my own. I didn't have no mother figure to vent to. My mama was only around when she needed something. So, my only hope was my grandma. She showed me unconditional love. Her and my pawpaw. They was the only people who had hope in me. But, then they passed away." I said noticing that I was starting to cry a little. She caressed my hand.
"I would look for my mama when I looked for girls. I needed somebody to confide in. I kept looking around and around but I still never found that girl. But then I met you. You showed me nothing but loyalty and all I did was fuck over you. You gave me a babygirl but I still managed to cheat. When I'm in my thoughts, I dont believe nobody love me. I feel like everybody against me. And I think a random hoe would make it better. I'm learning Jah. I promise. I just want you to be on my side and work with me." I was now staring into her eyes.
Before she spoke she let out a sigh.
"Kentrell, I suffered the lost of a parent. And I didn't have a father figure for damn near all my life. I been through some shit Kentrell. But yet, I still managed to be there for you when you needed me. I took you back plenty of times. Even when I shouldn't have. But I believed in us. In you. I was trusting the process. But plenty of times the process failed. I kept trying. I didn't go and fuck no random nigga cus I was hurt." She said getting emotional.
"You kept fucking around on me and I forgave you. So. Many.Times. If you want this to work Kentrell I cant be the only one trying. You have to talk to me. When something on your mind let me know. You cant put your feelings into a random bitch. I need to be able to talk to you. When somethings wrongs with me I shouldn't feel like I cant talk to you." I looked into her eyes. Jah is so beautiful.
"You're trying and I see that. But you're not trying hard enough. And I wont be a dumb bitch for you Kentrell I cant. If we gon be with each other I need to know its genuine. I wont break myself down for you anymore." She broke down into tears.
I gave her a long tight hug and she just cried onto my shoulder. I miss Jah. I would do everything in my power to keep her and Ke'ahri around me. If something happened to them I would go crazy.
"Jah I will paint the sky red for you. I love you to the moon and back. You my shawty and I promise to be there for you" I said.
"I love you too trell" She whispered.
"So what are we" I asked.
"Dont ruin the moment" she said.
"You right" I laughed.
"But seriously, promise me you gone be there for me no matter what. No matter what you or me going through. We come to each other first" she said reaching out her pinky.
"I promise" I locked pinkys with hers.
We were just sitting here drenched in the rain. Loving each other
She'll be the death of me. And I have no problem with that as long as I die on side of her..
