trixya

Cigarettes & Candy

Hi! i don't know how to explain this part but i promise it gets better, it's just kinda intense. I rlly like it tho so idk enjoy :) btw, i'm not gonna write 'trixie's POV' anymore cos from now on, every part is in her POV xx

I was relieved as I stepped out of the car, the tension was so thick in there you could cut it with a knife, I can't explain why though. Teens were spilling out of the house in front of us, some passed out on the lawn, some hooking up on the front deck and some guys just being rowdy. Katya walked around to the pavement next to me and winked at me before leading me into the house.

As we stepped inside some drunk chick pushed past me, stumbling. We continued in the house, rap music was booming out of speakers and the living room was packed with sweaty bodies. Katya turned to me and leaned forward so close I could smell her vanilla perfume, slightly masking the scent of cigarettes on her breath. Her lips close to my ear she shouted over the music 'Are you good? we can go upstairs if it's too overwhelming down here.'
My heart melted a little that she even cared, even though she had a pretty tough facade, she could be thoughtful when she wanted to.
In all honesty, I was feeling kinda overwhelmed so I just nodded and she grabbed my hand gently and lead me upstairs, pushing past the teens hanging over the railing and stepping over the discarded red cups.
We ended up in an empty bathroom and I exhaled as Katya locked the door behind me, the music muffled now. I jumped up on the counter and leant my head on the mirror.
'I'm sorry, we only just got here and you're already having to babysit me. If you'd rather go drink I'll just stay here-' I said, talking fast.
She smiled and stepped forwards, pushing my legs open slightly to stand in between them.
My skin immediately burns from the contact and I feel the familiar feeling in my stomach that I usually do when I'm around her.
'Hey, it's chill if you wanna stay in here, everyone else is pretty lame anyways.'
She said reassuringly, her blue eyes staring into mine.
I laugh, 'That's a fucking lie, you haven't had time to even see who's here yet.'
She smiles and shrugs her shoulders.
I smile back, staring into those blue eyes, complimented by her smudgy black eyeshadow. We stay in that position silently for a few moments. Me, sitting on the counter, back against the mirror. And Katya, standing between my legs, her hands once again resting on my thighs. Suddenly, her face is getting closer to mine, I'm almost involuntarily leaning forwards too, my minds a blur and before I can process what's happening, her red lips are on mine and I'm melting into the kiss. She tastes like cigarettes and candy as she swirls her tongue in my mouth. Her hands are all over me, she puts both of them around my waist and easily pulls me closer, I'm on the edge of the counter and her body is hot against mine, my heart almost beating out of my chest.
What the fuck am I doing

As soon as it started, it was over, I pull away from her and gasp.
'I can't do this.'
She frowns as I slide off the counter and walk out of the bathroom in a rush, I know she's following me out so I quicken my pace.
'Hey Barbie, wait. I'm sorry'
I ignore her and run down the stairs, holding onto the railing as I push past everyone.
'Barbie-'
I barely hear Katya still calling me but I keep going, out the front door.
'Trixie!'
I spin around as Katya catches up to me. She stops and catches her breath, she looks confused, she's probably never experienced someone not wanting to hookup with her before.
'Trix, what's wrong? I-I'm sorry I thought you were into it' Katya said, uncertainty in her voice.
I shake my head, I feel a mix of emotions and everything's sort of a blur.
'I'm straight Katya. And I know what you do with people. You use them as your little fuck buddies then when your done you kick them to the curb. I don't wanna be another of your fucking hookups, If i had known that was the only reason you brought me here, I wouldn't have come.' I shout, heat rising to my cheeks. I don't know what I was saying, I couldn't stop myself, it just came out. I was angry at her, and angry at myself for feeling the way that I did.
She looked hurt, and I suddenly regretted what I said.
'Is that what you think of me? I'm a slut? Fuck you Trixie, you don't know me. Just because I've got with people in the past doesn't mean- I-I actually liked you, and don't try to act like you're not into me either, you kissed back.'
Katya snapped.
I could feel my eyes start to water and my vision got blurry.
'No. No, I'm straight.' I turned back around and started marching down the path with tears streaming down my face, the last thing I hear Katya yell out was 'You're fucking lying to yourself Barbie.'