Fuxk A Duck (Multi Oneshots) (mostly gay)

I wish💘 (malec)

Shadowhunters - Magnus x Alec
"I wish I was enough for you"

I wish I could tell him how I feel. He's my husband for God's sake! I shouldn't even feel this way. He chose me. He proposed to me. Why do I keep feeling like I'm not good enough for him?

Because he's this legendary, powerful warlock who's had an impact on millions of peoples lives through the centuries. What am I, compared to that? Some run-of-the-mill Shadowhunter? I'm nothing compared to him.

Yet he chose me. Why did he even choose me? He could have had more or less anyone in the world, yet he chose me. But why?

All these thoughts were rushing around in Alec's head and apparently it showed on his face because Magnus' own turned into a frown. He could tell Alec's was overthinking as he always made that face when he was overthinking things.

Feeling a hand on his shoulder made Alec turn around to look at his husband. He was met with a reassuring smile which he could only meet with a slight upward tug on the corners of his mouth. This in turn made Magnus shoot a slightly concerned look his way which made Alec frown. He didn't want to make Magnus worry but he knew his husband could see right through him so trying to hide his feelings would be useless.

Gathering all the confidence he could even begin to muster up, Alec took Magnus' hands in his and looked into the shorters eyes. He felt like he would faint but he managed to keep himself standing. Taking a deep breath, he began explaining to his husband what was going on.

"I've been thinking", was what he started with. Magnus got a bit confused at this cause he made it sound like it was something terrible. But, not wanting to interrupt, Magnus only squeezed his hand reassuringly as if asking him to continue.

"Maybe a bit too much, but I need to tell you this... I can't help but feel like I'm not enough for you. Like you deserve so much better than me. Like I'm just holding you down. And I know I shouldn't feel like this since you could've left if you didn't want me but I just can't-"

He was cut off by Magnus' lips on his. Kissing him back, Alec tasted the salty wetness of the shorters tears. Pulling away, Magnus was the first to speak up.

"I- You do know I feel the exact opposite, right?" Alec just stared at him, confusion more than obvious in his eyes.

Magnus saw this and continued; "I mean, I question myself everyday over the fact that I was so lucky as to snatch you off the market before anyone else did. How incredibly lucky I am to get to spend the rest of my life with you. With you, Alexander Gideon Lightwood Bane."

Alec still looked like a question mark, but before Magnus could say anything else, Alec already muttered something.

"But why? Why do you feel lucky to be with me? I feel like I'm a burden to everyone in my life."

"Why? Because you're amazing! You're smart. You're caring. You're thoughful. You're romantic. You're passionated. You're ambitious. You fight for what you think is right. You stand up for those who can't stand up for themselves. You speak your mind! You help others in need! You're selfless-" This time it was Magnus who was cut off by a pair of lips on his. He immediatly responded to the kiss, his hands finding their way into Alec's hair, and Alec's hands finding Magnus' waist.

Breaking apart for air, their foreheads resting against each others and their eyes finding the others.

"I love you" whispered Magnus.

A/N what did you think? please leave any comments and opinions 😊