NIKKI'S POV
Last night.... I'm not sure what to make of it. Something as simple as a dinner turned into a confession . And if I'm being genuine with myself , I want to explore whatever it is between Alex and I.
But then , what do I do about Austin ? He's literally the perfect man . Any woman would be so lucky to claim him , heck, I wish I could be that woman . However, there's been this silent longing I hadn't realized I've been experiencing with Alex until the last few days.
Hell, we've been hanging out and cuddling like it's no big deal, when in fact , it is. Everytime he held me in his arms my troubles melted away. I felt safety within his hug and now I know this isn't one-sided. Do I love him? Yes but I'm not sure the depth or intensity yet . Not until..... no , I can't think about that right now . I need to figure it out and need to make sure I'm not stringing innocent hearts along with me. I've never been that type and I don't plan on starting now.
First things first before I make decisions . I mean I know what I'm feeling and wanting . I hold my phone pulling up Alex's messages and type out:Hey , can I see you today?
Alex responds back rather quickly , saying we can meet for lunch if I'm free. This is perfect, the sooner the better . I would go there now under the guise of breakfast but I have to be thoughtful in how the conversation is going to go. How I want it go.
Time seems to stall as the ticks of my clock notch slowly . I try to busy myself by finishing up my project and sending it in for the final approval . Even with that, I thought I had taken ample amount of time cleaning up whatever needs to be perfected , time still moves at snail pace.
Is it because I know I'm going to have an important lunch with one of the most ,if not the most, important person to me ? When did things become to complicated? Maybe I'm overthinking it .
Shaking the negative out of my head , I decide to jump in the shower . Something relaxing and soothing to wash away some of the stress that's been building in me since Alex left last night .
Once I'm dressed, I applied a light layer of my tinted moisturizer and some mascara. I don't want to do myself up for a lunch and more so, I don't want a full beat sliding off my face from the nerves I'm feeling. By the time I grab my shoes the clock on my wall is reading 10 minutes to lunch.
I must have been in the shower longer than I thought , so I rush out of my building and head towards Alex's office . Needing to resign in my anxiousness, I take a deep breath before going inside .
The security guards know me by now as they wave me through. "Nicole , it's so good to see you . Alex is already waiting for you and told us to let you in as soon as you came," the older guard says .
"Thank you!" I beam at him making a mental note to bring some extra treats for them when I come by again.
The elevator doors open and I step in, feeling a bit more fidgety than before . It's like the nerves are gradually building and I have no idea why . I've been here enough, I've had lunch with Alex a lot . So this isn't new, yet it feels like it . Twisting my fingers into each other , I try to remind myself to relax.
That worked for five seconds before the doors chimed open and my heart began to beat into my ears . Why am I like this ? I slowly make my way to the end of the room where his office is before I'm greeted by a few workers on the floor. We chat for a second and then I continue on.
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Becoming First Lead
RomanceThis is a sequel to Can You Keep A Secret . I recommend reading that before jumping into this but it's not absolutely necessary. Alex Wells thought he knew love but realized it was just infatuation when he met the love of his life (Aria); who was a...