The perfect pray [NAMJIN]

21. One and only prey

It's been weeks and weeks full of gray days. My precious Jin still far in the shadow, hiding from me as best as he can. I am slowly loosing hope, it doesn't look like he has and interest in me whatsoever.

Maybe it was meant to be like this, maybe I was hoping for too much when I wanted to have a happy future with him. Maybe this is better for him too. Who would want a future with a disgusting creature like me anyways.

We're meant to be alone forever after all. Living in the shadows of people and feeding off of them in secret.

"Namjoon!", someone shakes with me body. I lift my heavy eyes and they land on Jackson.

"Namjoon, bro you really scared me for a minute here. You can't just stop moving in the middle of that hallway. Especially with that killer look. Hold on, did you even sleep? ", he slides from my side right in front of me, "not to be rude or anything but you look awfull".

"Yeah uh, the exams and all you know the drill." I rubbed my eyes to wake up just a little more.

"You're not the one to struggle with exams. You sure you're ok?", I don't even know when he started caring for me so much. And I'll lose him one day. God this all is so depressing.

"Don't worry I'm alright." I tried forcing a smile so he can let me go.

"Well I won't force you, but I'm here for you ok?", he fist bumped my shoulder and was gone in the crowd of people.

I signed and tried to pull it together. Just a few periods and I can go hide.

The thing is, when I drinked from that stranger and that whole incident happened, I didn't drink much since Jin came up and then I ran after him. The guy was probably already woken up and to be honest I didn't feel like drinking since than.

But I do need to drink at some point, sooner or later I will get the cravings again and if I wait any longer I might not control myself much.

But how am I supposed to drink when all I can see is my precious Jin shaking in fear.

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I closed the door behind me and threw my bag on the couch. I swallow the wanting of fresh blood. I do have some blood pacs in my fridge but they're not good enough. I want fresh warm blood, the one that's straight from a breathing body. But I can't, for Jin. Until Jin forgives me I won't drink. I can hold it for eternity for him. If he finds it disgusting I won't do it.

I can feel my body twitching, it clearly disagrees with what I decided on. But it can't be helped. I go into my room and try to do something to distract myself but it doesn't help.

My breathing gets quicker and heavier. I bite my lip until I can feel my own blood.

I can do this. I will do this for Jin.

*Hoseok's pov*

"Huh? Namjoon isn't at school again? I thought something came up yesterday, but today too? Did he say anything to you kitten? ", I said with me eyebrows knotted.

"Nah, I haven't heard from him in a while, but he isn't the type to contact me often anyways." He gave me a small peck. "You're probably worried about nothing".

"No, no you don't get it I have this bad feeling. What if he's blaming himself because of that incident with Jin? You can't be sure if he isn't doing something really stupid right now. "

Yoongi just shrugged. "Doubt it, Namjoon ain't that type of a guy.... I hope".

Sorry for the wait everyone T_T I swear I'll finish this fic I promise. Hope you're safe and healthy 💗